Loosing my mind

I am absolutley loosing my mind. I love my job, the actual tasks i do and the projects i work on are so interesting and im getting such fantastic experience. However, I miss my old compnay so bad. I'm a 23 year old woman, half of my personality comes from the internet and the other is such aggresive genz brain rot that i cannot admit to being proud of. My old team were a young team, the oldest being 40 and most of the team being late 20s early 30s, and most of them women. The vibes were just so good, my humor worked, people knew what i was talking about or they were enough older than me that we could joke around when they didnt get the joke or vaguley knew what it was. Or on the other hand if they made a joke about something from the 90s we'd joke around about me not being born. on the flip side my current job, the whole team (and im not even being dramatic) is men in their 50s, maybe late 40s. ALL OF THEM. I AM THE ONLY WOMAN!!! I try not let it get to me, my gender has no impact on whether i can do my job. I however just feel the way they trat me differently. They hold me at arms length, they don't joke around with me, im not invited to social events. I refuse to invite myself and be some tag along. It doesnt really effect my day job, I still do my tasks, my boss is happy with my work. But I want to be closer to the team, I want them to know they can joke around with me without me being offended but i Just dont know how.

Again, my health is currently a wee bit on the not good side. I'm in the process of working out what is wrong with the doctor but I just wish I was relaxed enough with atleast 1 coworker (even my boss) to talk about it. Not even in a detailed way just in a sharing stuff about my life way. i dont think any of them know anything about me and its hard. I have ADHD, and all its left me is I cannot stop masking during work. it means i come home so tired and socially drained.

TLDR; i miss working with women and my health is pooped.

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Sarah Work December 10, 2025 at 5:32 am 0 0