Consciousness

Where are our thoughts truly located? We can see electrical patterns in our brains, but the effect of thought effects the body heavily. The mind is a very powerful device and if you don't know how to operate it: it can prove to have devastating effects. I recently heard some people don't have an inner-monologue. They don't hear their thoughts in their head.. I wish I was one of those people.

I have been in countless altered states and lived in somewhat vaguely extreme circumstances. I have ridden the waves of anxiety and absolute peace: I loved coming down as much as going up. I still do. But one must be conscious most of the time. As someone who only wants to get high and enjoy life all the time it should be far less than 50 percent of your time.

You can be constructive while on drugs. You can create different things, and enjoy the world in a different way; it can be a great learning experience. It is not a necessary thing in life, but it can be beneficial. All things can be beneficial in moderation; but when something is amazing

how do you moderate it? I don't know how to control my mind. I drink too much or I smoke too much or I overdose on caffeine. I don't understand why exactly. I know I am a stimulation-junkie in general. More adrenaline please: with a side of the spiciest food you have. I want to get injured just because it's not boring pain doesn't matter, it's usually the byproduct of having done something dangerous.

I crave to live on the edge I want to be always in the early stages of love with the world. I don't think my absolute love of life could ever be crushed. I would just like to live from the center. I crave a reduction of stimulation. I rather, crave a reduction of desire for stimulation. I don't need it! Nobody needs anything; I have to figure out how to not need something all the time. I will just do coffee but not overdose on it; not have one cup then "Why not 10 more"

It's fun but it takes a toll. I am healthy but like, sort of tripping all the time and I am tired of being unaware of the world around me and creeping everyone out lol. idk

I don't know what to do in any aspect of my life really. I see a path that would work, but I also feel obligated by society. Society baffles me: it isn't a bad thing at all but it makes reality so strange! I don't know the rules and it all seems tilted or something. It's a fun place but at the same time it's a game I don't really know how to play. I don't really want to play it outside of like, it providing me with a means to travel and try exotic strange food. I would work hard for it even though I don't really want it to control me. I believe in it but it's really not for everyone

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TheMoron Body February 18, 2020 at 9:36 am 0 0