Idk what to think

You know when you get a tattoo and at first your nervous of maybe even scared. when the needle hits hit stings and it stings till your skin goes numb and you can’t feel it anymore. But you don’t stop it. You stay in that spot till it’s finished and you get that grate looking tattoo.

I don’t know if it’s just me getting in the way of my own relationships or what not but I kind of feel like I’m getting a tattoo. My skin is not going numb though and all I can feel is the sting. I have been in a situation-ship for quite some time now. We haven’t made it official because both of us are on edge on if it’s going to work still. At this very moment he’s at home he woke up three hours ago and has said two sentences to me as to when we first started seeing each other he never stop messaging me he always want to see me whether after work or before work he always wanted me there and now nothing, and maybe he just had a long night but My worry is that it’s been four months and he still has dating apps. I’m big on communication so I have talk to him about this and he doesn’t see my point of view on the matter. I’m trying to bypass it I’m trying to pretend like it’s not happening when I know he’s talking to other people. I’m trying to tell myself if I keep acting like it’s not hurting it’ll finally go away. And that’s why I feel like I’m getting a tattoo. Where the gun on my skin I’m bleeding just a little bit but I’m pushing through because I want that perfect tattoo. In all honesty I know that we will not work in the long run but I keep wanting to pursue it!
Maybe I like the chase like most women do but as I’m laying in my bed I keep thinking why isn’t he messaging me why isn’t he answering my calls is he talking to other girls and I shouldn’t be worried if he’s talking to other girls because I have been talking to other people as I have told him because he has hurt me in the past. He’s keeping his options open as I am keeping mine. Maybe that makes me the bad guy and maybe I just need someone else’s point of view to fully understand. I’m a very understanding person and I do understand that sometimes you see what other people are doing to other people but you don’t necessarily understand what you were doing to others or to yourself.

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Emma Relationships October 01, 2022 at 3:28 pm 0 0