Not my self

I really don’t feel my self,, I’m quite,, being lazy,, trying to lose weight in ways that I never knew existed. I feel lost,, alone,, lonely and just not me. usually I’m all laughing all the time smiling and that one happy girl but no it’s all going down hill,, I don’t want it to go any lower because I’m on my last straw as it is I can’t lose my battle ive been doing so well before now. It all started on the 25th September the day I will never forget the day that I will always feel pain and the day I lost my side kick. She always knew how to make me feel so much better but no she’s gone I never feel better and now it’s just always heart break after heart break and she’s not here to show me her superpower,, her superpower was her smile and I’m never gonna forget that. She was my favourite person of all time and that I will never forget,, I will never forget the memories we made and the ups and downs we’ve had. Me and her was like wallice and gromit,, ant and dec and Rachel and monica she was my best friend,, my soul mate. But now she’s gone I’m not the same,, no one is. I can’t help to think if I’m doing her proud or not,, I don’t know if the stuff I do is not right and she would of told me that but because I don’t have her to tell me what not to do and what to do it’s hard to think what she still thinks about me,, am I still her little chicken,, am I still the most beautiful girl,, am I still the most thoughtful but most of all am I still her favourite I will never know. I just want to be normal again because it keeps going more and more down hill and I dknt know what to do anymore um just so lost right now and I don’t know if I will ever get better I just want her to help me and give me one of her hugs because I know they always used to work and that’s all I’ve ever wanted since the 25th I just miss her so much man.

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liv Other December 03, 2021 at 2:13 am 0 0