again againa

i was walking behind them while leaving the school. i got my bag and right in fortn of me they were skipping hand and hand. that keeps replaying in my head. im not jealous tho. they can be the closer friends in the trio, but i wish they didnt treat me like this. they constanly make me the 3rd wheel. and field trips or whatever with them are just grusome now. even if its like the funnest trip, like we had this whole day of trampoline parks for this hs trip and i found myself listening to sad songs on the way back, hanging my head. i tried to look enthusiastic for my parents and everyone cause yeah it was a great location but the trip in general, no i hated it

the moment of them hand in hand skipping together down the hall, is lowkey making me cry. cause i wish my friends did that with me. i wished they screamed my name when they say me, and came to give me a hug. i wish i had matching friendship bracelets that they just wouldnt wear after a week or loose em. i could write paragraphs on parageraphs on these things, ive lost so many friends, i dont feel like loosing more yk>>>>
i hate my lfie sometimes, ik the saying grass isnt always greener on the other side, but coming home internally crying after what if supposed to be the best day of the sem isnt it. idk anymore yall
thank you for reading!

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princess (fr) Friends August 26, 2024 at 9:15 pm 0 1