Fuck everyone

I fucking hate everyone, no one is helpful or useful, my mom is a bitch as is my sister & my brothers are always causing problems. I get hate no ma5ter how hard I try to do the right thing. My boyfriend is helpless, being hurt at home, school, around friends, he can't even protect himself, so he has absolutely no chance of helping me, his parents hate me, my parents hate me, all of my little siblings hate me, my friends are unaware of anything bc they would rather talk about dumb shit like which boys got in a fight or which girls turned out gay, it's all irrelevant & I'm so frustrated, as a childy father hurt my mother emotionally, now she hurts everyone around her, her boyfriend hurts her physically so she hurts him back physically, my father hurt me physically so many times I've lost count, my siblings have been conditioned 2 hate & distrust me. I been off my meds for months.. even have a therapist but she never sees me
has 2 many clients bc her boss fired another therapist bc he called the boss out on her tyranny & bullshit, hence he was bad mouthed by the boss & eventually fired bc noone else had the balls 2 stand up 2 the boss, I hate my therapist bc she let it happen, my tech sees the abuse of power & tries 2 say something about it every now & then but a target is growing on her back bc, once again, noone is backing up the accusations against this goddamn tyrant, so she'll probably be fired soon as well, which I don't know if I can hand all the changes, nothing is stable for me, everything keeps falling apart, I'm falling apart, I can't even tell if the tears I cry are real or not, I feel hopeless, honestly, I think I'm gonna relapse, I'm running very low on my will 2 try, & on my will 2 live. What am I gonna do...

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Rin Home May 30, 2021 at 2:12 pm 0 0