F My Life

Just sick of my life in general. Here's a quick rundown.

I'm 33 years old (cis male) about to be 34.

I-

Still live at home.

Had to go back to my dead end part time job because my full time job essentially forced me into quitting for BS reasons, and no one else would hire me.

Have no friends that live in my state. My nearest friend lives 6-7 hours away. Getting to see them in person is rare.

Am Morbidly Obese.

Am around $7,000 in debt, thanks to friends breaking my trust after I helped them out.

Haven't been in a relationship since I was 15, that didn't get any further than hugging and hand holding.

Have basically no life. I work, sleep, play video games, watch YouTube, and masturbate, because how else am I going to get sexual satisfaction.

I'm just sick of it. I recently stepped majorly out of my comfort zone and started joining dating apps, but surprise surprise, no luck.

I plan to try to look for a better job next year once circumstances allow, and want to start working out and getting healthier again, but am afraid that it will just be another phase that won't last and I'll give up on myself again and just try to be content with how things are.

I do have great family, and a few decent friends, and hobbies like video games, and listening to music help me forget the BS temporarily.

But eventually I just start feeling like shit again.

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C H S Other June 06, 2024 at 12:57 am 0 1