QUISLING

One day there's this guy in marching band who catches my eye. Like the stalker I am, I glance at him whenever I can. I can't help it. He's just too cute.

Our band went on a trip and I often rode the same bus as him. I would've talked to him, but I got sick and lost my voice.

In English I begin to daydream about him, which isn't good (but we don't do anything in that class and the teacher gives 100s out like candy so I guess it's okay...?). This makes me realize that crushing might be extremely unhealthy.

Marching season ends and I don't see him around anymore since we're not in the same concert band or classes. This irks me because I was going to talk to him to get him off my mind. He keeps invading my mind but once I realize how human he actually is, I reckon I'll stop.

I decide to confide in a friend to get him off my mind. We've known each other for years and our parents are good friends. I guess we might be a wee bit distant since we don't go to the same school or share the same interests.

I thought she'd help me get him off my mind. Instead, she decides to go after the guy. She follows him on social media, he follows her back, and now all she ever talks about when we text is him even though they've never talked in person. I really don't know how to feel about this. I'm angry at her, but it may be one sided. I don't think she realizes that what she's doing kind of feels like a punch to the gut and it's also kind of my fault I guess.

I'm a wreck, aren't I?

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anonymous Crushes January 14, 2019 at 4:43 pm 0 0