What do I do

Idk what to doo hahah I hate myself so fuckin gmuch at this point, all I do is spend time online and I can't even bring myself to write the shit that i want to write becauseits fucking.

I randomly get an idea and then write maybe 2000 words at most and boom little oneshot that that post and WOAG people commented that's awesome I planned to have a sec9ndchapted too and then. Never write it. Ooh I wanna draw this guy but I'll do it later but thne I never do it. Even if get myself toopen a drawing programm I just sit there, constantly getting distracted by whatever. Its not like I can just get rid of the distractions because I work better with something running in the background, and it's agnonizing to try and work with no like music or some random dumbass documentary about a 12 Yr old that hacked the US military or some shit and. Fucking hell. This isnt fun anymore. I want to smash my head into the wall until my skull shatters because then someone will have to do something about it hhhahahahah I want to break my leg I want to rip my skin off I want to bleed.

I don't 4ven know why anymore. I mean what I I said barely even fukcing scratches the surface for some reason, that should be it . I eont need more 5hints about myself I can just be lazy is that not good enough. That's enough. I hate this. I hate this world, I hate myself I hate living.

What the fuck do I do anymore???, hahaha I. Duciint. Thanks you autocorrect for making this smei legible. I guess.

I'm barely in my teens and if this is the *start* of puberty I don't think I'll reach adulthood. The worst hasn't come yet and its not happening right now. I'm scared. I'm fikcing scared.

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anonymous Other September 01, 2023 at 11:13 am 0 0