It s over

It's over now.
She has blocked me out of her life forever.
I will always love her.
I will always think of her.
I am ending my life soon....
I cannot live without her.
Life is unfair. Some get to live life and enjoy it. They find women who love them back. They find companionship and happiness. I am 23 and never received loved or care from anyone. I don't want to live anymore. I don't want to exist anymore. Last Tuesday was when we last talked. She was so upbeat and happy. I hugged her. Everything seem alright. Now it's been like 4 1/2 hours and she hasn't replied to my last text. All I want, if she is going to leave, is a goodbye. But, I guess I'm nothing. I'm no one. I knew this my whole life. She just proved it. She's right though for doing this. I'm ugly, weird, disgusting and clingy. No one would want a man like that. So, I don't blame her for hating me. I guess she blocked my number or changed her number.....maybe she just totally ignored me. I'm trash. I am shit. I don't want life if it's going to be without her. All I wanted was her friendship. I guess she finally had it with me and decided, "you know what, this dude is annoying, ugly, and weird. I'm blocking his dumbass so he can never talk to me as long as he lives". And so that's what happened. I knew it would end this way. That's why I was so scared. Well, my fears proved to be premonitory as they prepared me for this heartache. Goodbye everyone.

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Loser Other November 26, 2018 at 11:43 pm 1 1