I don t know

I don't know what I'm feeling rn.. I cannot explain it, I just know it's too overwhelming for me, everything.. everything seems difficult for me to handle. I can't even tell myself how I feel? Why is life so hard on me? Maybe I deserve this? I deserve every hardship that life's been throwing at me. I pity my mom, she wants to go to the hospital for a check up because her body is feeling sick but we don't even have enough money to afford a check up. I'm sorry mom, I really am. I know u can't afford to give me money to continue my college anymore but don't worry mom, I'm going to find a job, maybe a part time or full time, I just really want to be able to provide even a little money for our everyday needs. And I want to say sorry for all the lies that I made/said to you, I hope u forgive me soon– coz I cannot tell it to you personally that's why I'm just writing it here. Sorry mom, if only I have the brains to get a scholarship, but I tried right? I tried to apply for it but maybe it's not just for me? or maybe should I apply again? I'll try again this A. Y. Sorry because I can't even do something to help our family, all I can do is to tell u funny jokes to make u laugh and smile, I hope u appreciate that because just like you always do, you always say that you're always having a headache/hard time thinking about our financial needs. I'm really sorry mom, I know ur jewelries are already gone little by little and I know its hard and its breaking u knowing that you cannot get it back coz we don't have the money. Dad never knows how much struggle we are facing, he does not even care if we have something to eat or not. And now that it's Father's day, all I wish is I hope I'll never find a man like my father. I love you mama, thanks for being a mother and a father to us in times when we needed him. You're so brave and I can't tell how lucky and grateful we are for having you mom. Happy Father's day, mama! May Allah bless you with happiness in your heart and may you be able to witness my success in the future ♥️.

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