I don t know my feelings

GOD FUCK FUCK FUCK....I fucking just hate my boyfriend so much. I mean not hate? But saying hate feels like it fits? I hate it because my emotions take over my whole brain and body and feels like I really do hate him and I mean it and I question it because in the back of my mind, I know it won’t work out and that it’s not enough for me. Lately, I’ve had the problem of saying all the mean impulsive shit that I keep inside when we fight. Like it feels like I don’t wanna be in a relationship anymore sometimes. At least not with him. God he’s such a fucking asshole scum bag. It’s probably all the fucking resentment I’ve kept inside. I mean I think I’m glad I met him because being with him definitely taught me things about myself. But god I’m just sick of his bullshit, of every one’s bullshit. My bullshit. I just fucking hate it all and wish the world would burn

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anonymous Relationships September 26, 2019 at 2:00 am 0 0