Messed up distractions

I hate being at home. All the time I spend at home is miserable. My teenaged sister talks for every god damned second she is awake, and if she's not talking she is watching vines. The same 5 second audio clips mixed up, playing over and over again. I have asked her to use headphones, told her the noise bothers me, bought her a few pairs and told her to use them, but she doesn't want to use them. She has ear infection issues and really bad reactions to the heat, so it might be justified not to use them.

I try to get away from it. I spend almost all of my free time here trying to get away from it. You could suggest anything and I've probably tried or considered it. I go on walks but I get sunburnt for a week or two for it, and the people around here let their dogs loose on the streets so I'm always nervous one day it's going to be an aggressive dog. I go out and do yard work until there is no more to do and have to put up with wasps and mosquitoes in addition to sunburn. I play video games but I feel like that's wasted time because they're boring and unproductive. When I go online I get argumentative, lazy, and also feel like it's wasted time.

I have not had free time for the last three years. It comes and goes that I spend my weekends and nights feeling like I'm going to snap over this. Hey teenagers, if you don't use headphones, if you spit your fucking obnoxious 45 dB girly voices like liquid hell all over the airspace of your general vicinity, and if you give older people shit who have the metel to put up with your dumb comebacks and ask you to tone it down like everybody around you is actually hoping you do then FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU OBNOXIOUS CUNTS

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anonymous Home January 11, 2020 at 3:35 am 0 0