It takes one person

No matter how bad shit is, there is good out there. If you can't fathom something, if life seems like WHAT THE FUCK WHY GOD? idk, not that exactly lol but like... out of control. If it feels as though you can't get a handle on shit

Talk to people. Lots of people! I live in a small world and hate most of my acquaintances. I have one person I'd call a friend IRL, and too many shitty people who call me their friend. I felt like I was drowning for ages, I started feeling better not long ago but I still had something caught.

I still do, we all do. Even tripping can't clear our perception entirely. Thought is salvation. I had one conversation with someone on a chat site. I asked them for a job lol because they were writing a series. I don't care if I get the job or not honestly; but we talked for a while. I'd love to get my foot in the door as a writer; i'm a job jumper who wants to go back to University.

They were passionate about what they were doing and it felt so good listening to them! I learned a shitload about writing and music production. Simple philosophies that I understood, but didn't quite grasp. I had read about George RR but hearing someone tell me editing is everything had more weight than reading about it.

We all grapple with our lives in youth, with meaning and substance. I'm 29 and everything keeps breaking lol. I make a plan and God laughs (i don't blame anyone else, i just love that saying.)

Hearing someone talk about things you are passionate about. Getting outside your lie! Fuck my life lol, it's beyond explaining. fuck. olololol Idk, everyone needs passion. When you do something you love, you live in that. Find something you love and do it! Everyone is good at something!



If you enjoy something, DO IT A LOT! If people say you suck, keep doing it! Fuck those people. Especially on the internet lol :D like, these people?! Most are so bitter they can only talk shit. When people are like that, they are probably worse off than you; lashing out because they are shitty inside. Fuck those people! I grew up with dial-up, so I am well versed in the internet dipshit. There are fewer people like that in reality. Most of the internet people who do that have no purpose to their lives. I feel for them; when we're in pain we lash out. I was there before idk, i wasn't that malicious at least;



Anyway, i hope anyone stressed out skips my rant and reads this. Life is heaven and hell. If you're in hell now, you'll be feeling good soon enough. You just have to fight! Find enjoyment! Everyone is good at something! A girl I was ubering once told me she wasn't good at anything. It broke my fucking heart. Her parents did that. I rage at the thought but Your life is yours! Practice practice practice what you enjoy! A lot of the things people said I was shit at, I get complimented on now. lol, i enjoyed doing stuff and I kept doing it. Amidst losing so much else, I have things i'm proud of. Be proud of yourself.

BE PROUD OF YOURSELF: what do you like about yourself? Fuck that! LOVE IT ALL! If you are human, you are dynamic and beautiful and NOBODY CAN FATHOM YOU! Nobody will ever understand you completely. If they did it'd be fucked. You are an enigma, you are a bombshell! I love you all! Everyone is the best! Your enemies are antagonists and YOU ARE THE MAIN CHARACTER.

Life will shit on you. SHIT HAPPENS. Give yourself a lil time to lay in bed. It's important to wallow a little, but know you neeed to fight. DON'T SINK INTO THE SWAMP ARTAX! I never want to change anyone's mind, but I believe in everyone. Trust noone, but the human condition is infallible. We can survive in any weather condition, we can surmount most odds. We all die, but until then, the fight is yours. There is infinite love in the world, you are never alone unless you want to be.

No matter what you believe, who you are, or where the fuck you're from; YOU CAN DO ANYTHING. You just have to bite down hard on your dreams, and let them drag you to where you want to be. There is a way! FIND IT! I know you can do it!

Don't hate. I hate hate but like, it's passion. When you are in a passionate state it's easy to get lost on the bottom but, you are better off looking at the object of your distaste and understanding it, instead of letting it corrupt you. I was lost and I hated a person for a bit. The futility of it idk.. I understood it well enough, until I thought about it. THEN, i understood it somewhat better. I'll never grasp it, just as nobody will ever understand you completely. That is the best thing; fuck being predictable. Try to love, but outside of everything FIGHT FOR YOURSELF. I cared too much about other people. My life is mine now. It belongs to me. I am generous and will always be. If I feel someone is trying to take advantage I am cutting them out; I disowned my sister a few years ago. I despised her growing up but it turned to pity, then indifference.

Hearing someone tell me about their past a lil. It wasn't even much; 2 sentences... helped me see my current idiotic issues so clearly! I've been through this before! We're all weak as fuck. I abhor weakness but I am as riddled with fault as anyone. Here I sit drinking wine. Fuck this site lol, I am going to go work on my novel. What I am passionate about. NOBODY NEEDS ANYONE; you can do anything. The people who need things have never had to do it on their own.

Do it on your own. What do you want? It is yours; if you fucking claw your way through the wall of crystallized bullshit to get it. I am getting what the fuck is mine. Fuck my shitty job, the silly circumstances of my life. I will finish my degree and create shit. I really just want to create; i want the degree to fund it. Find your passion! i could rant about this forever, people are one of my passions. I love you all! Even if you're bitter and feeling down. Even if you hate me. I am here for you! I wish I could help everyone but I don't have time; MY LIFE IS MINE!!! And so is yours! Let's do this!!

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