Why am I always in last place

I have a friend I have known for years I flat out have told her that she puts me last and its hurtful. She tells me she does this because I am the only one of her friends that does't use her for something. She said I am the only one she can go months at a time without talking to and then catch up and never miss a beat. She is constantly mad at her other friends and talks behind their backs which makes me wonder if she does the same about me. About 3 years ago out of the blue she said she can no longer get us Christmas gfts she has too many friends and all her other friends are all friends with each other and they do a gift exchange.... We still did birhtdays for 1-2 years then out of the blue she tells me its childish. So I said fine... less than 2 weeks later I am with her when she gives another friend a birthday gift... Then this year out of the blue she begs me and my husband to go with her and her husband shopping for her birthday and I was the only one she really wanted to hang out with. I agreed, I didn't get her a gift or anything but went with her. She asked what I wanted to do for my birthday, for years I have never seen her on my birthday because she has yet another friend who lives out of state and her birthday is close to mine and she spends a few days with her. I was jealous when she didn't live out of state but inderstood she only goes to see her 1 time a year or so. So I was shocked she said she didn't have the money to go. As my birthday got closer I thought more and more about asking if they wanted to go do somethiing with me and my husband, only to see on facebook she was going to spend the week with her friend... Never even said anything about it. I am tired of being last, I know in a pinch she would do something for me but not before I begged seems like everybody else get the best of her. She gets the best of me, and I have nothing to show for it.

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anonymous Friends August 04, 2019 at 3:24 am 0 0