im not good enough

I dont want to tag rant or anything, I just want to put this out, I will be censoring my name for this one, my name is x , and I have a girlfriend, her name is y, she really is the most beautiful person I've met, and over the years, ive messed up, ive messed up really bad, and it's now coming afloat, everything is being known now and I am an asshole, she's a year younger than me but skipped a year because she is smart, unlike me, I was actually held back a year because I am not that smart and it really saddens me to see myself, I am not smart enough for her and she has to help me with some work sometimes, I feel really embarrassed and like an asshole for doing all of this, these days I just make her really mad mostly due to my compulsive lying, I want to be better for her, I want to make her feel loved, I forgot to mention that over the years , ive lied a lot and now she has body issues, I cant give a shit on what comments im going to get , roast me, diss me, I dont care, I just want to be better, and I just needed to rant because I feel so stuck and useless

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