hey, I totally feel you cause I am going through the same thing and I feel exactly how u r.
I'd say even if u feel like depression is kind of leaving you that's not really the case. You just get used to it so it can feel like it's getting better when it's rly not. When it comes to anxiety... that shit is the worst, im so sorry u have to feel that way, i know how terrible and affecting that is. I also used to go to therapy 3 years ago but i didnt really continue it. One night i couldnt sleep because i was very sad and i had horrible panic attacks that literally didnt let me sleep all night. The next morning I thought enough is enough and decided to go to therapy because waiting and not doing anything doesn't change the situation. I' ve been to my therapist like 3 times and honestly I do feel a bit better. Obviously, i cant fix all my problems in such a short time but even making such an important step as reaching out to someone and going to therapy with the thought of getting better is already a huge progress. I never had the courage to kms or hurt ms either so i totally feel u. I just silently suffer ahhah. I'd say go to a therapist and give it a try:) At least u will know that u did something to feel better! and good luck, dude. just know that it's okay to feel that way. it sucks but dont be hard on yourself, im sure u have reasons to feel the way u feel. sending u hugs dude!

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keisha 5 years ago