idek

it just all feels overwhelming sometimes. the thought that im caught behind everyone my age. im too late. i feel like i had a different childhood, not in a dramatic way just that i didnt grow up doing the same things as them and sometimes i just feel a bit seperate. i feel so much pressure to live up to this standard people expext me to be at in so many different aspects of life. but i always feel like any of my problems are that valid because generally i have a good life. i feel so scared of the future and whats to come. i just dont know how anything slots into place yet. i also feel like im so numb to feeling like this that i have no way of letting it out anymore. i physically cant cry anymore because im so used to having to hide how i feel but it just means its so much harder to let go of the emotions. i feel like theres so many little problems in my life that have just recently been piling up. Im scared of my own thoughts a lot. Idek anymore. sometimes it feels like nothing and sometimes it feels like im being weighed down by all of the little thing. i just wish i could let it all out.

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anonymous Other August 18, 2021 at 2:08 pm 0 0