assignments parents and contradictions

SO- you want me to do my assignments, pass them on time, and get good grades. That enough is doable, and yes, I can do it! But, but, but, you want me to have 9-11 hours of sleep, eat 4 meals a day, jog in the morning, shower in the morning, and bathe at night? I'm sorry, but I can't fit that into my schedule if you want me to prioritize my assignments! I'm aware you just want me to have a healthy life, but, I want good grades. No, not just good grades. I want EXCELLENT grades. I am willing to sacrifice my health, so your image of a perfect daughter is SPOTLESS. I've been doing this for God knows how long, and suddenly it's an issue now?? I am not capable of living a healthy life while being academically proficient. I'm actually trying to put EFFORT into my studies, and I get scolded? HUH? Literally the ONE day I try to be productive, I get scolded. "You should've done it earlier!" I DID do it earlier. But SOMEONE turned off the internet before I could finish, making me restart the whole process. "Try and sleep earlier!" I am sleeping earlier than before. I don't want to waste my time sleeping when I could be using that time into doing my assignments. It's always either 'Why didn't you do it earlier?' Because I COULDN'T because you won't ALLOW me. I am most productive at late hours, but you can't seem to comprehend that. I do most work when I am in dark places, but you still insist on putting me in the brightest of rooms. I am not like the both of you. I am not motivated by determination, or sheer will. I am motivated by my fear of failure and disappointment from YOU. You need to realize that we have different work ethics. You do best in the day, I do best in the night. I prefer to rest ub the day, you prefer to rest in the night. It is not unhealthy. As you can see, I am still alive and kicking. But what isn't healthy? Forcing myself to adhere to your body schedule, when i simply can't because out body schedules DON'T align. So, let me work in peace or so help me I will fail myself to take summer classes.

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lllll School March 31, 2022 at 11:29 am 0 0