fml

i just want to feel alive. stuck in this pandemic, cant even go there and there because of our car always need to be repair. fuck my miserable life. i know there might some other people out there that dont even had a chance to sleep on a cozy bed and i know there could be anyone out there that wants to end their life because of their abusive partner or parents or anything and i also know that this world are so fucked up that no one fucking care about everyone. i hate how painful id to get through everyday. i hate how this pain couldnt even let me breath for a fucking seconds because whenever i feel like im the happiest person in the world i feel wrong about it. i feel like i shouldnt be happy i should be fcukig sad and just fuking die because i never i fckg never told my mom that i love her the most in the world. inever did. all i do was making her life painful andsucsk everday. i dont want to get married to anyone bc i want to take care of you mami. i dont want to be part of anyone's else life. i want you only. but i hate how toxic you can be sometimes. i hate that ive to hear all the negatives words that you spit on me. i hate me also.

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anonymous Other May 06, 2021 at 3:27 am 0 0