WHY AM I LIKE THIS?

Everytime, every fucking time i always ended up doing more pickign up my mistake. doing too much yet doing too little. always always ended up makign mistake and fixing up that mistake and not only causing problem for myself bt for my team becasue i didn't checked everythig. I DID, BUT THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING I MISSED. i wanna cry, but im public, shutting myself and try not to affect someone this poiint. the thing is i did. and always messing up. im going nuts. i was called or at least labeled at some point that i am the chillest person they know. but not now. i want to be chill but if its something to do with my mistake affectign other. i cannot be chill. i dont mind my mistake effectign only me. it's okay, i dont mind taking my time, forcing myself to point of destruction if it doesnt effect people. BUT IT DOES. i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it. i used to be able to check things and be in control of my brain, btuu for ssome reason i cannot think straight anymore. always ended up forgeting and more careless. and my dad wanted me to be in the accounting. oh ill fucked it,i will stmble so hard. adsfj alsdk;jf as;dlfj i dont even know what i was even ranting about. i just wannarant and let this emotion out

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AO Other November 03, 2025 at 8:37 pm 0 0