Family shit

So since around..August or smt last year, the drama in my house has been alot. Arguments, them almost becoming physical, my brother running off, mental breakdowns. Alot more, too. The center of the listed problems are my older brother (two years older than me, hes 17). Around the beginning or so of last year, he started doing a bit of weed with his friend, he came in, got his food then went to sleep, my mum and stepdad had a problem at first but then realised it was helping him chill out a bit, so they didn’t say anything after that. But since he started dating his gf around August time, hes gotten worse. Not only on drugs, but mentally as well. He essentially let her control him and does whatever she says. The last month or two has been the worst of it. My brother had started to become physically aggressive to my stepdad and mum. He also began to run away from home with his gf, we had to phone the cops whenever he wasnt home at a certain time. So basically most of the month was cops at our house. After one argument, we got his phone (my older brothers really, he pays for everything on it and that), he then ran away again. Missing for a day, but i mentioned he had a tracking thing on his gf's phone. The cops also asked for my mum to look through the phone. Horrible stuff on there. Anyways, afyer that stunt, he had to be moved out of our house. He had to stay at my sickly nans, he stressed her to high hell. He then had to be moved out. (Update irl rn, theres an ambulance near my house and it might be my fucking eldest brother hopefully not. Hopefully. No one can reach him for two hours.) His gf's still controlling him, and recently made him mess this whole housing thing up. Shes picked on lads where he was and now theyre both too scared to return to their respective places. (My mum thinks its my brother btw. Fucking hell. My lifes a shitshow rn, not even sixteen yet man..) but, then shes got a hold of my brothers accounts and started to send everyone nasty and threatening texts. We also recently found out theyre both syauing with a drug dealer near us. Literally not a five mins walk. She keeps walking by and taunting my stepdad and mum. This really putting me on edge, i easily pick up on others negative emotions. I easily gain others stress. My attendance at school is dropping. My tutor knows the situation a bit so shes trying to keep my spot. My own anxiety is being amplified, my self destructiveness isnt getting better. I genuinely cant care for myself without being forced to. I have scratch scars on my arm and thigh because i scratch when im anxoius. I dont know whay to do. Ive thought about ending myself, but thays so fucking selfish of me. That'll only add onto my mums plate and tip her over. Shes also said something like that before. I just want my brother back. I miss him. I just wanna be happy again. I just wanna be a normal teen. Is thay so much to fucking ask??

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anonymous Home January 09, 2026 at 8:34 pm 1 0