Trisha paytas crying on the kitchen floor

Like how hard is it possibly to find someone you want to get serious with? I always do this too. I find a guy attractive, I make a move on it, we hook up, I get attached, and he doesn’t! And I know the way to be in a great committed serious relationship is to take it slowwwwww and go on datessssss and kiss after the sixth date or whatever but GUESS WHAT! MEN. DONT. WANT TO DO THAT! They don’t! I’m telling you they don’t! This happens every single time! And I don’t know if it’s just a me thing, it probably is, and I should probably stop sleeping with guys on the first link, but GOD! I just want to be loved! I just want to be held and assured and pursued by a guy with my same interests, my same outlook on life, goal oriented, intelligent, attractive, and the worst part is, I found the guy! He’s a guy in my department, we’ve had class for like 2 years straight and so we became kinda friends but not real friend friends. Well after pining after him for over a year, and during a semester that we had a class together, he actually made a move on me one drunken night at a bar! I went home with him that night, we had the time of our lives, we hooked up of course, and just like that…poof! Never happened again. The man of my dreams, one drunken night together. Gone. And the worst part? WE HAD CLASS THE FOLLOWING DAY. HOW ARE YOU GOING TO DO THAT AND THEN SIT IN A ROOM OF PEOPLE THAT WE ALL KNOW AND ACT LIKE YOU DONT KNOW WHO I AM. Ohhhhhhhhhhhh im an idiot. I’m an IDIOT!!!!! What is wrong with me? Why is finding love so hard? I’ve completely given up on these men, I don’t even care anymore. I don’t care! I’m done trying with them! I’m almost out anyways and then they’ll never have to worry about me again and hopefully I’ll never see their fucking faces. Except I do want to see their faces, at least his, cause I’m hopelessly and delusionally in love with him and he probably has no idea. Well that’s great. In a few hours I get to see his roommate in class, how riveting and wonderful. Goodnight cruel world.

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anonymous Relationships April 09, 2026 at 12:02 am 0 0