I love being a dependent adult

There's absolutely nothing I love more than having to be dependent on a malignant narcissist, and a degenerate gambler to live long enough so that way I can figure out how the fuck the job system works for someone who is too ugly for most people to consider hiring, too weak to work 99% of the jobs that might consider hiring me, too fucking stupid to work the 1% of positions that I could possibly do if I were able to work from home, but because the lovely corporations that may as well be our government right now would rather own expensive ass buildings and micromanage every single one of their employees into complete uselessness, from burnout, rather than having useful employees that actually do their fucking job getting a work from home job that isn't a scam or a cult is basically impossible.

Whichever member of my family goes first no matter what happens I have no idea what the fuck I'm going to be doing.

I'm fucking terrified every goddamn day and I have no lifelines.

I can't even get them to pick up medicine for me despite the fact that they want me to get better.

I physically cannot walk to the pharmacy without risking passing the fuck out in the middle of the goddamn street.

I genuinely want to get better but I can't even look them in the eyes because I'm afraid of them talking to me.

I don't want you asking how my day is, you already know it's awful, and on the off chance I'm having a good day for once in my life, you find a way to fucking ruin it.

Sorry I couldn't give you grandchildren but in a world where I have to listen to you both basically say "pedophilia is okay as long as he takes care of his partner", I think I would rather not have a child on this Earth.

Anyway time to wait for a doctor's appointment where I'm just going to be told my blood pressure is through the roof and I'm going to get a prescription for medication just so that way no one will fucking fill it, and nothing will ever get done because I have no ambition, and my only will to live is for the sake of making sure my family doesn't have to bury me, and I don't mentally destroy my girlfriend

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