Can't find any reasons

Life been shitty ever since before college, like my path was unclear and don't know where to go. Troubled with life, friends, family, and financial issues. I knew before I wasn't a good person, I'm well aware that I'm not perfect and I also make mistakes. I'm struggling to forgive myself from the damages that I have done, carrying the burden that made everyone turns their backs against to. I told the truth, everything that I know.. but I'm questioning why I'm at fault here? Why am I the blame? When in fact you told them a secret that was supposed to be between you guys, I only told it to a certain person because it was fucking painful for me. I was mad at this person not knowing she was struggling all this time? I know I made a mistake for telling it to someone also but why I'm the only everyone blames for it? Geez I'm way too lazy to explain the whole story.

I'm struggling at college since I kept thinking about my tuition fee, another fucking burden in my shoulders. Even though I'm not the one who's paying for my tuition fee but it burdens me that my parent's are struggling to find money for my college. I already suggested that I should transfer but they refused, telling me that I should stay in my program and institute I'm studying at. How? How can I stay when you're guys struggling to pay for my tuition? I can't do well enough because I don't to live anymore, I'm genuinely on the verge of giving up life right now. I don't want to live anymore, everything just feel I'm just a another nuisance existing this world.

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anonymous Other May 29, 2025 at 11:32 pm 1 0