Im scared, peach

I want to talk to you so much baby. I love you and miss you so badly. I just want you to love me again. It feels like I'm losing everything lately. I hate how I've lost you. I'm scared I've lost you forever. And I'm scared I'll be here loving you forever while happiness for you means not speaking to me. What do I do baby. Why is everyone acting so weird. Why has life been so difficult. I just wanna go to sleep with you in my arms again. I want you to soften the blow of life. I feel like I'm going crazy and it's getting worse everyday. I feel like a timebomb that's going to explode. Everything that releases from me is ugly. When I'm honest everyone goes away. The feelings are so intense it makes me want to rip my skin off. I'm scared I'm getting closer to actually attempting to rip myself to shreds. What am I supposed to do baby girl? I miss you so much. I just us to hold each other. I want you to kiss me and tell me it's going to be okay. But im scared you hate me. And you just won't say it straight up. Why is your life so much better without me? Is it like that for everyone else too baby? Would you be worse if we were still together? I can't take feeling like this anymore. I wanted to marry you so badly. I was writing music for our wedding. I knew where I was gonna look for a wedding ring. I wanted to tell my mom. I wanted to buy you a puppy. I wanted to build a home with you. I still do. So much. I don't want to live this life without you. You're my sweet girl. I miss you so much baby I can't do this. I'm so scared baby. Our love is on a constant loop in my head and I can't help to think I lost the love of my life. Please come back baby. I'm sorry I hurt you baby. Please forgive me. I want to try again and do things right. I want you to tell me about your day and what made you excited or annoyed and I want to make you dinner and take you out for a drive in my car. I want to pet your head and feel your hair in my fingers. I want to kiss you goodbye when I go to work early in the morning while you're still sleeping. I saw my whole life with you. And I don't want to lead a version of my life that doesn't include you in it. I love you so much sweet girl. My peach. I don't want to live this life without you by my side. I love you so much baby girl. Please come back to me. At least one day? I want to be the one you marry. I want you to be my wife. I love you sweet girl. I love you through everything. I love you.

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anonymous Other May 31, 2025 at 1:49 am 3 2