Why am I always alone?

Up until school I had a small group of friends and i was happy, this was before COVID. My high school got over then COVID started and next two years of schooling were done online. I did not have any friends during that time, just few people who would text me for notes and stuff, I was always that person I think....borderline a nerd, but I don't look like one. After that college started and I just tagged along with a group of 3 people. They are great people, really and I wished I spent more time with them. Now that college is close to completion, I got an internship and friends didn't, we don't really keep in touch anymore, I try to start a convo in the group, but it frizzels out. My social communication skills just went to 0 after COVID....I'm so awkward and I think people just don't enjoy conversing with me. It's not that I'm boring, I want to talk too, but after just a few chit chats they stop. As an intern I want to talk to everyone too....but I just feel left out, I know they're fun people but few just never talk to me. There's this one person in the group, who I tried to speak in the first few days, but I felt that he didn't wanna talk with me, so I stopped too.....hah and about relationship....I did have a partner during high school, broke up after one year probably cuz he found me boring too. After that I did not really take any initiative to start dating....but I feel so alone, no partner, no good friends, no nothing! I feel so sad ....I was tearing up on my way back from office. My parents also have paid less attention to me after my sister was born (she's 12 years younger than me) and I was pushed into being an elder sibling suddenly....and I still struggle with that, with being responsible, knowing everything and doing everything suddenly. Huuuu, I'm crying as I write this, I feel better now I think.

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I Relationships February 18, 2026 at 8:44 am 0 0