Struggling

Im struggling to not commit homocide. This all started when my dumbass decided to look for a place for me, Aye and Bea to live in back in July. They couldnt come up with all the money the security deposit and 1st months rent, so I (along with my own portion) provided the extra few hundred $$ to secure the house. Note that I work a regular fulltime job, so Im not big ballin. Bea also works the same job but theyre part time. Aye, at the time, worked doing deliveries and also Dashing; He quit his delivery job just before we moved in for unfair treatment. So after moving in, Aye was 7 days late on rent and never paid it (or any bills) again; making me and Bea pay for a 3 bedroom house with a 1.5x minimumwage income. We felt for Aye cause they were goin through a depression episode but in january we had to kick them out and search for a new roommate. That didnt last long til that huge snowstorm came and Aye asked if they could stay for those few days. We didnt want them to die to we said yes and now theyre just back again. They explained that they "cant" get a normal job with people cause "i cant work with incomprtence". The irony...then their car breaks down. Theyve been borrowing from a family member but they need it back like every other day or so. So this asshole is just louging on the couch most days. Even when he has the car, they barely go out to work cause his new meds make him sleepy...anyway, it seems like theyre doing better recently, they got therapy and theyre in line to get a better job but its just taking time and money we dont have. We're overdue for bills and i cant even buy a new pair of fucking work boots. Now switching over to Bea. Theyre my best friend but im beyond frustrated with them. Im workin my ass off making sure we have a roof over our head and almost everyday I have to hear them complain about how hard their 4hr shifts are or how tired they are or theyre body aches in some way (cause all they do is eat and laydown). I work 40 hours a week and AT MOST they do 25, but normally its 12-20. Then they go home, doomscroll twitter and watch livestreams. Recently, they were kicked off their medical benefits for welfare and their foodstamps were reduced cause they just got a raise. Now, they cant afford health insurance and can barely get enough food for themselves. When I tried to tell them that they need a full time job, they actually covered their ears and "lalala"d me like a fucking child. I love my friend dearly and id do anything for them, but their laziness and complete failure to grow the fuck up sometimes infuriates me. Idk what do to. Before all this i lived in a studio and was doin just fine on my own. But i wanted to get Bea out of her toxic ass familys place and Aye also needed a place to stay after they broke up with their girlfriend. I dont have money to myself anymore, everything i work so hard for, every penny goes to bills. I'm tired of just working to survive while these 2 chucklefucks refuse to help out more and just offers apologies for not being able to help. YES YOU CAN, YOU JUST REFUSE TO!
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Cee Home March 17, 2026 at 7:25 am 0 0