Online friend derailed my life.

We met on a forum looking to roleplay, world build and create characters to write/interact with each other. It was a great hobby because I love fantasy writing. Especially during the pandemic it was a way to pass time. As we grew closer and talked more, I suspected in our private messages this person was lying about a lot. At the time, I just brushed it off and kept writing with them but we grew closer and closer, so it was impossible to quit. When I confronted them they blamed me. They acted like I was crazy and straight up manipulated me.
I have only now just started to process the manipulation and abuse I was put through after blocking this person last year. It is a really weird and complicated situation to tell anyone without them thinking how stupid I am for being catfished when all I really wanted was a friend to write with.
Another shameful thing to admit is that they always flirted with me so it made me feel special and I think I got my emotions tangled in alongside the story we were writing. It's just too ridiculous to say aloud to anyone but I am so angry.
So, so angry. This is the vent I truly wanted to get to because every. single. night. I think about that piece of shit who manipulated me for 4 years straight and somehow I went alone with it? I am so stupid and pathetic. I knew the entire time but couldn't break it off due to stupid fixations on my writing and attachment issues. WELL FUCK YOU KOBAIN. BENTLEY. KURO. WHOEVER YOU FUCKING ARE FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU FOR DOING THIS TO ME AND MAKING MY MENTAL HEALTH GET WORSE. FUCK YOU FOR BEING A MANIPULATIVE DISGUSTING PIECE OF SHIT WHEN I WAS GOING THROUGH THE WORST OF TIMES. I HOPE YOU FUCKING DIE AND ROT AND I WANT TO SEND THIS MESSAGE TELEPATHICALLY TO YOU
FUCK YOU

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anonymous Friends March 14, 2026 at 7:47 pm 1 0