Meadow

I had this really great best friend, we spent a lot of our weekends together getting high and just- talking. For hours on end. Throughout the duration of my life Ive always struggled horrendously with making friends and keeping them. So to feel like I had found my person was such a wonderful light brought to my life. I shared everything with her and she did the same with me, no such thing as TMI lol. I loved her so much she just brought new perspectives and memories to my life that I couldn’t remake with anyone else. But shit just started to change with us, and sometimes I feel like it was all my fault like maybe I didnt deserve anything she ever did for me and that I was not enough for her to want to keep me around yk? One day she just fucking snapped at me for calling her out on talking shit about me. I was really fucking hurt when I found out. when I asked about it I didn’t attack her I wanted it to be anything but true. I wanted her to tell me that she wouldn’t ever do that to me. But instead she sent me this HUGE text about how I’m emotionally immature, a hypocrite, how I have a victim mentality. I believed her because maybe I WAS just so self absorbed I hadn’t realized I was the scum of the earth. Maybe I don’t believe it now because of my victim mentality, I don’t know. She told me our friendship was pointless and I just broke down. How on earth could the one person I ever wanted to be in my life more than any boyfriend, any friend, any family member tell me that our friendship was POINTLESS ? I think about her all the time but I know she’s just going on with her life and that she doesn’t give a fuck about who comes and goes from her life. I know that about her, I watched her do it to so many other people, I just never thought I’d be on the flip side.

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N/A Friends February 22, 2026 at 3:45 am 0 0