lmk if i’m tripped

ok so boom me and this girl are talking right all calm cool yk we’re telling eachother about shit yk past stuff so we can really lock in right ? so on like tuesday she asks if we could see eachother and i was like ofc i just gotta stack some cheese yk so i can take her out and buy her stuff but i didn’t tell her that i just said id have to save money then yes we can see eachother, so later that day i was texting her just to make sure that she really wanted to see me because prior to this there was a couple times she told me like let’s just stop talking yk and i kept telling her like i really wanna talk to you yk giving reassurance ok so i was just making sure she ACTUALLY wanted to see me before i saved my money then she wanted to change her mind( which if she did woulda been ok cause im very patient like ill wait for you), im not sure if i was saying it wrong or saying it in a complicated way but she just kept thinking i didnt want to see her and i was just trying to stop talking to her, when i kept telling her that i just wanted to make sure , ok so this goes on for like hours mind yall im at work mad asf texting, like i’m just trynna tell her before she wants to go further yk like i come with my own baggage yk like im not that good looking so like i don’t want her to get her hopes up just to see some regular bitch cause yk i’m not allat right so boom she just keeps thinking i don’t wanna see her so im at work tired asf and honestly i get like i was begging her to believe me so i was just like ok if you wanna stop talking it’s up to you let me know what you wanna do type shit, so then again she was like wtv you don’t have to talk to me so i got mad cause wtf are you talking about and i just was so tired i said this “i was just trying to make you wanted to keep talking before i get attached to you but it seems like you don’t even care so im not gonna say anything else sorry for confusing you all the time i wont nomore” cause she said i was confusing her with what i was saying so in my mind imma just stfu cause if i’m trynna explain sum and you are getting confused and i keep explaining it diffrent ways and you’re still confused it just feel like you don’t give a fuck about what i’m saying,mind yall this was still all on tuesday so we stop texting for a lil bit then she text me again and said can we talk about this i said what is there to talk about she said please don’t be that way so i then said “constantly telling someone let’s stop talking makes a person feel unwanted, im not saying this so be mean im trying to make you see what im saying” then i said if im explaining things to you the best i can and you still don’t get it then maybe you need someone else who can better explain things for you, thats fucked up ik but if im clearly not doing good enough then she should just find someone else, then she never texted back left me on read and everything then i get on instagram and she’s posting on her notes, ok then i go on tiktok and she done posted a whole tiktok.. ok so in my mind that basically means fuck me you told me you wanted to talk and i say what i have to say then you leave me on read but go post on social media so i say ok whatever and i just go on about my business and keep going to work, then today (friday 12/12) again she says can we talk im like ok whatever she starts saying she’s sorry for how things ended because that’s not what she wanted, mind yall i done already got in my head that she clearly never gave af about talking to me so i’m just like it’s cool there’s nothing to apologize for it’s straight,she then says i wanted to apologize and that i don’t need to be so hostile i say im not being hostile and that’s there’s nothing to apologize for, she leave me on read then text back like a hour later saying why did i unfollowed her on everything (mind yall im heartbroken and mad asf and i don’t wanna keep seeing her posting instead of texting me back) she then says “i don’t want to stop talking like i don’t think of you in a bad way and i get you have trauma and whatnot but i promise like it’s ok” … CHAT TS IS NOT OK LIKE AT ALL ?? like wtf i tell you about my trauma then you go and do ts ? then you basically just downplay it like it’s nothing like what .. mind yall THIS is the trauma i like smb and we get so far then the mf start acting weird/talking to other people/ ignoring me in general i have bad abandonment issues evb i like leaves me for someone else and i keep telling myself that imma just stop talking to people but like i can’t help it yk cause like if i like you then ofc imma want to talk all the time and eventually get further into just hanging out along with trust issues im genuinely just so fucked up but regardless of all that i still just put it aside and try to put myself out there and every single time it ends basically the same way, then like a couple minutes ago like 20 i texted her and i was like no i can’t do this like i can’t just be your friend like none of that happened so let’s just not text and she said “idk what’s wrong” so i ask her is she being deadass and she said yes… like you don’t know why i can’t just act like it happened?? i just wanna know if im tweakin or not like i need other people’s opinions

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Myah Relationships December 12, 2025 at 5:04 pm 0 0