just me

I'm actually so tired of everything. My parents don't care about me; they don't treat me like their baby anymore. I just want to be treated like my younger sisters are. I was raised with tough love, but I just want love. Is that actually too much to ask? I was just looking through my mother's messages (she's asleep)
We fought, I yelled A LOT about the things i was mad about. This isn't the first time it's happened. It's exhausting living with parents who think they're right because they're older. They don't fucking talk to me anymore, I'm a stranger in their own goddamn house. They don't put effort into shit, because no one wants to talk to the daughter with an RBF and too much to say.
The message (it was to my dad) said he should come home from errands and calm me down by 'hugging and pretending'. It hurt to read so badly.
All weekend, I've been crying in my room. I'm a usually social person, but I don't feel like myself. I've lost interest in my favorite things, I've lost my appetite, I'm just really unhappy.


Another really shitty thing my dad did was destroy my iPad (I'm not allowed a phone)
It was my only way to communicate to any of my friends, and it had my whole life on it. I had only gotten it 4 months ago, and he shattered it. He said he didn't feel bad because he did it for 'my own good'. My mental health has gone to rock bottom ever since the iPad was broken. My friends feel bad, but I don't want them to. this sounds so confusing, but I'm too tired to type more (there is a whole lot more)
I don't know, good night.

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anonymous Home August 24, 2025 at 11:57 pm 0 0