I'm Blowing Out This Candle!

Hey Malou, I got to get this out of my chest!
You are the reason why I am distracted back in college,
You are the instigator to get my feelings hooked on you, since day one!
You have the motive to force me to marry you,
You are the reason I DROPPED OUT FROM COLLEGE! Why?
To try and get my shit together, find work, and when I get settled, return to you.
But you didn't at your end, you got yourself hitched with a successful ad exec from Makati.
Yeah, and you said in that website made by that kid of yours, saying that your "dreams are not realized", what?? What the f**k does that mean?
You got busy with ad guy and got two kids! YOU GOT YOUR DREAMS!
I'm not your "Keymaster" anymore cos that guy got two keys shoved in your padlock, "Gatekeeper"!
Your marriage has one meaning for me, that I am not good enough for you!
Took me 15 years to fight depression and anxiety to learn to love and forgive myself first, more than anyone else.
15 years....my god! I missed a lot of opportunities! I was too cowardly try to find another! Damn you!
It's actually the other way around! YOU ARE NOT GOOD FOR ME!
And I guess the reason you're not on social media may mean one thing: You are guilty!
Like an ostrich buried it's head underground.
Time to snuff this candle out, too tired of holding it for far too long.

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You know its me! Relationships July 06, 2025 at 1:38 pm 0 0