I can never do anything right

I can never do anything right to my mom. It doesn't matter how good I do in school, the fact I have a job, or all the work I do at home. I'm always seen as selfish and accused of just using her money (which isn't even hers because its my brother and dad who work). She buys things for me all the time, whether I ask for it or not and I am always grateful, but if I don't jump for joy or cry every time she see's me as being ungrateful. I always am, but it gets to a point where she buys things for me that I don't know what to do with, or clothes I would never wear. I fake it till I make it, but I can't do that all the time. I have a lot on my plate, from college classes, my job, my out of home business, and life things. And its like she expects me to drop it all and be there for and with her. She's mad now again because she thinks I don't care about the things she got me today. Even though I explain I do and appreciate it all she just doesn't care. Its like she gets tunnel vision and can only see it her way, which is me being ungrateful and not wanting her to get me things. She thinks she has to buy my love because of relationship issues we've had in the past... that was 4 years ago and she won't move on from it. I suffer with it everyday, whenever she gets upset with me (which is often), she always brings up how she "can never do enough for me". She doesn't see the things I sacrifice for her, the things I do around the house for her, its like it doesn't matter. I'm 18 and haven't seen my friends in almost 2 weeks because whenever i do go out she makes me feel guilty for doing so and accuses me of making my friends more of a priority then her. I'm just tired you know, yes I'm technically an adult, but I'm still young and I feel like I can't do anything. I just wish I lived on my own sometimes so I didn't deal with this all the time. I don't even care that I'd probably struggle financially, I just want my own space, which I never get. Its a lot and there's more to the story you know, like she has her own issues yes, but why does it always have to fall back on me. I'm the one left dealing with it all because my dad and brother work out of state most of the time and only come home on the weekends. I just get so tired. Whenever this happens I wish I could just fall asleep and wake up a new day like nothing happened. I don't know if anyone else understands this or not.

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K Home November 05, 2025 at 9:40 pm 0 0