He moved on a month after the breakup

I feel like crap and i feel so dumb. We broke up a month ago and were on and off. He reached out and wanted to see me but barely put in effort. I was always the one reaching out and deep down i wanted us to work out again but he wasn't giving me the same energy back. we hung out a couple times and everytime i see him i want to cry. A few days ago i came over his house and we had a great time. the day after i was being treated like i didn't exist and he was just so dry. I was fed up so i stopped hitting him up to see if he would make an effort to text back but he didn't. So per usual i reached out and i kind of went off and was like thats it, whats going on with you. I was telling him how sick i was for always giving more than i get because HE was the one who wanted to keep me around and i put myself through all of this pain to keep him longer. He then called me and said he has been talking to someone else. my heart fell to my ass and i was just so angry. I knew it was inevitable but wasnt expecting for it to happen so soon. I finally realized that he actually lost me this time because it was extremly disrespectul. Im going thru all the motions right now and i just want to cry. I hate him but i still love him. UGHHHHHHH. i payed attention to his social media a few days after we broke up and he started following a bunch of girls. it made me question our relationship in the first place. Did it mean nothing to him??? i just feel so empty and betrayed and i feel so stupid. He was literally my person, we did everythng together now i just cant even look at him the same. I still try to find the boy i fell in love with and still hoping hes still in there but ive lost hope for everything. i miss him so much it hurts. he kept telling me that it just happened and it had nothing to do with me at all. like how is HE OKAY with this. im just so frustrated.

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kristy Relationships June 15, 2021 at 7:13 pm 0 0