Fluffy pony abuse content ruined me

I was just a kid, maybe around 10 when I first came across Fluffy Pony content. I was disgusted initially, but the thing is I was young, I never knew that this content was inherently bad; my parents didn't care, so I thought that maybe it was okay. So I watched it, video, after video after video and I even mentioned it to my friends; proudly parading that I was an enjoyer of this content. I found it "cool", even encouraged by it. I was so depraved, that I even started to imagine me in this situation, as the abuser, because I saw how "fun" it was.

Eventually I grew bored, I grew tired of just watching that content, so a year later, when I was 11, I bought 3 rats and did unto them what I saw on screen. I did it to a hamster too, and a bird; with me killing each one in a brutal manner.

I knew it was wrong, but never felt guilty about it. Fast forward some years, I just get hit with a truck of realization; I felt guilty. Some friends, after learning if it, even cut me off; a person I saw as a brother figure also cut me off, also for some varied reasons like me constantly venting but yk

It made me feel like shit, and right now, I just relapsed about it; and now, my life is like, 30% shittier because of that content, easily accesible by kids on YOUTUBE out of all places. Whoever's making this content needs to realize what they're doing is wrong and just stop, to just keep stuff like that away. I don't want another kid to undergo what I went through, Fluffy Pony Content was so close to ruining my damn life, but I'm just glad I stopped before it can get worse.

Sometimes I relapse on it too, but I find it disgusting rather than "cool" now

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anonymous Other October 06, 2026 at 6:06 am 0 0