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I HATE BEING ILL BRO OUHHH I HATE BEING DISABLED THIS SHIT IS SO ASS I want to do things I want to go do walks in the woodlands, I want to keep my room tidy, I want to talk to my friends, I want to make art, I want to finish school work for the course I picked, I want to DO THINGS but I can't because I'm so fucking tired all the fucking time. My legs work, I can breathe, but I'm in pain. I can't stand without feeling intense nausia and dizzyness. I can't talk to my friends or family without getting irritated and upset that I have to be around people. I can't even enjoy the company of my pets without feeling irritated because I'm too tired to play with them. I hate feeling so lazy and not having the resources to help myself because the fucking docters wont give me anythign to help till I get diagnosed but they won't diagnose me till they do more tests that they keep moving further back every time they're booked. I hate feeling lazy. I'm not lazy. I want to do things. I feel like I'm physically rotting on the inside every time I stand and they won't do anythign about it. I feel likey brain has a fucking cavity I hate this. I hate this I hate this I HATE THIS.

I USED TO DO THINGS. I USED TO LOVE HIKING. I USED TO LOVE WALKING TO THE BUSSTOP TO MEET UP WITH MY FRIENDS. I USED OT LOVE EXPLORING MY HOMETOWN. I USED TO LOVE PLAYING WITH MY DOGS. I USED TO LOVE DRAWING AND MUSIC AND ART AND I CANT ENJOY ANYTHIGN ANYMORE I HATE THIS I WANT TO BE A NORMAL FUCKING TEENAGER BUT I CANT.

Body's are so fucking stupid i hate them

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anonymous Body July 18, 2025 at 4:41 pm 1 0