did

"DID is so fun!" beeeeeep red buzzer sound
please steer clear from anyone who says ts. yes i honestly really love my headmates and think theyve made me less lonely in some strange way but we've all been yanked from our lives and families to play some sick and twisted multiplayer in a body that none of us even want (even i, the syshost, dont believe this is my body because im fictionkin).
i get held accountable when my headmates do stupid shit (which actually doesnt happen often but still), i have slightly more intense delusions now, and we all have the shittiest memory (one guy already had memory issues in source and thats DEFINITELY not helping). not to mention it's always night in headspace, which sounds sick as hell on paper, but there is absolutely NO clocks and transitioning from there to here is hell for someone who already has delusional disorder.
its so tiring. i wish i only had to account for myself when making decisions everyday but no. im making decisions for myself and 4 others (5 if you count the guy thats more of an NPC and never fronts).
kinda hard to stay sane when at any moment, you could be kicked out of your own body by one of 4 options, those options being:
-the goddamn 52 year old. we love him but i mean its pretty noticeable when we transition from acting like a typical person my age to an old guy who's legitimately scared of skibidi toilet. i mean hes probably the tamest one but yk. wait no i just remembered he's trying to beat watermelon lube accusations he is NOT the tamest one
-38 year old who violates all the boundaries ever and leaves me feeling guilty for not being able to prevent it. i can only desperately pray she never fronts while im having an irl interaction because she says the most atrocious shit
-telamon! it's telamon! ok youre not actually too bad i guess
-this one does not have eyes, is nonverbal, and is not used to moving bipedally. she is enamored by the concept of being able to see so she either has a freakout when she fronts or spams gifs of items such as chicken tenders, garlic, and whatever else she finds. PICK A STRUGGLE. /lh
why are these people in my brain??? go away hello????? another reason why DID sucks is because everyone thinks im joking or its some woke liberal shit and i just adapted the label cuz i saw it in 2021 on tiktok. someone is gonna go in the comments and say something like that. just watch!
i dont just pick up labels like some people do. my doctor advised me that i probably have it and it is SO hard to get actually diagnosed with it so, considering i already suspected having DID since i was like 11, thats enough proof for me. also theres full ass people in my body i think i know what tf i have.

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subspace t. mine Body July 13, 2025 at 7:13 am 1 0