Why are parents like this?

My parents always get angry. Not because of work. Not because of others, but because of me. I dont know why i get this treatment. They always call me the lazy, arrogant, immature, disobedient daughter. They don't understand why i'm like this, why i act like this, why i yell everyday, why i have to argue the fact that im struggling. They always blame it on me, but at what cost. I'm always in the wrong whenever i try to explain myself. They always make it about themselves. I never get a chance to speak, but when i do, i dont know what to say. I'm silent, zoning out, staring blankly at them. Fidgeting with my hands, staring at the floor. I don't get patient parents, no. I don't get the parents that show they properly care. They show me how i'm utterly useless towards them. I get the silent treatment, doors slamming in my face with no conversation. Just loud banging, feeling like im not even seen anymore. Comparing, I can never talk about my feelings anymore. They wonder why, they force me to tell them. When i say i don't want to talk to them, they start yelling, things being thrown at me. Yet they still wonder why i don't want to talk. Whenever i get the words out my mouth, they make it seem like i'm the problem. Like i was never supposed to be here. I get compared to how they were before, i tell them, why? why do you keep doing this? I say stop comparing me to how you were before. I get "We're not comparing you, we're just telling you how different it was before." But they don't realize thats what comparing is. I yell, i say, but thats comparing, why don't you understand, why do you always hear what you want to hear. He doesn't know what to say. I leave the room, but he always comes back wanting to argue more. When all i've ever wanted was for everything to just stop.

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