Tired

Im really tired it feels like nothing is going well for me i feel like ive effectively ruined my life.. ive overspent because of my mania, ruined my grades when i was in school so now its incredibly hard for me to go to uni people keep telling me im young and its okai but it doesnt feel that way it feels like ive lived my life so far with nothing to show for it. im also fat and ugly with a horrible BMI ive been dieting and excercing to try to get it under control but because i have medical issues my body si working against me and its going either slow or not working at all.. im so doine tbh i feel like its easier if i just die and restart.. i dont think theres anything going in my life thats worth living tbh i just receive another rejection letter from the school ive applied for this makes the final and last hope iw as holding on for.. im also in a dead-end job where i kinda go and do nothing i feel so useless and so ashamed of myself. i dont want to kill myself i dont wanna give up but im also so tired i sometimes hope smth can just happen so i dont have to face the fact that im actively a failure.. i feel like im constantly racing and trying to climb myself out of the shit hole that I DUG but im so tired. I really hate myself to the core.

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loser Other May 21, 2026 at 11:08 pm 0 0