Some random shit today

Omfg it's so awkward in my bus it's cramped asf and the boys are all howling like fucking wolves I'm gonna cry bro(no shame to them tho their random convos make me giggle and shit. I one overheard one of the guys trying to hype his hb to talk to his crush so good luck ig?).

I have no friends there which makes it even more awkward. I'm prolly seen as one of those loner weirdos with no life.

even tho I SWEAR ON MY DAMN LIFE I HAVE A LIFE GENUINELY

like sure yeah and yh I may struggle with self injury or self harm, I may be abused in my house hold, suicidal, a victim of being groomed, bullied, insecure, yeah I hate my momma cause shes emotionally unavailable and just someone with a horrible personality and yeah sure my dad also has a terrible personality and talks shit and is just honestly pure dog shit and more and more but hey someone told me it adds character and backstory?

Sometimes I dress up masc or feminine mostly masc tho. And HEY I actually like my style rn like how I dress. Ig it's something to look forward in my life. Anyway last time I tried attempting was like a few? Months ago.

I'm definitely not healing tho even I'm not as stupid to give myself false hope as a teen. But like well idk even if I'm depressed at least I have the small things that bring me joy.

I won't make a promise to myself to one day be fine (mentally) cause hey I don't really wanna? Idk but I think I'm kinda weird cause I've gotten a little masochistic like I find being depressed bitter sweet?.

Anyway that's all. I hope whoever is going through a hard time no matter how small or big can find happiness even if I'm not happy. It's nice to have good people in the world at the end of the day. Idk what I'm even saying I'm kinda out of it tday

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anonymous Other June 13, 2026 at 11:16 am 0 0