sick of living

I wish I didn’t exist, I need help and I don’t know how I’m supposed to get it. Nobody fucking cares but when they have an issue or problem I’m the ons they immediately go to. I’m fucking sick of being treated like the second choice, as if I’m not interesting or good enough and I just want one person who gives a fuck to try and push. If I ever would reach out they would then find the opportunity to talk about themselves or to completely brush off what I say, either from discomfort and not wanting to aknowledge what I say, or simply indifference.I know I can’t rely on anyone for anything and that in life you have to be prepared to take care of yourself but It’s human nature just to crave that deep love and comfort. I feel completely numb most of the time and detached from myself, and I’m ruining my life as a punishment to myself because I’m still here. There’s no point in trying to escape but I want to just be better, I always make plans and always try and convince myself that today I will change and everything will be different. I’m so utterly alone and it won’t stop anymore, this is relentless and it feels as if I will never stop feeling fucking miserable. As if it’s just permanently wired into my body and soul and nothing can change that.

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anonymous Other February 15, 2026 at 1:46 pm 2 0