Sexual assault

I (female) (14 almost 15) was sexually assaulted by a “friend” at school almost 2 years ago. He would always ask me my bra size. And he gave me a condom once. He was in 8th grade and I was in 7th. It was in gym. He came in the weight room with my class and one of my friends made a joke about me “liking being choked” and he tried to grab my throat but I pulled away and told him no. I then moved away from him and sat down on a bench press bench and he sat behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist and pushed his penis against me. I eventually got him to let go of me and I went over to another area of the room. And he followed me and touched my boob. I said “what the fuck??” And he said “my bad” and then said “let me put it back” as he places his hand on my other boob. I ended up freezing and then the class was over so I left it and the next day I went to the guidance counselor. The dean got involved and 5 other girls were touched by him and they only gave him 3 days suspension. My school is sick. For a few weeks I had to walk by him every single day getting to class. I eventually couldn’t stand it and I drank alcohol at school and got sent to the alternative school. I’m still struggling. I cry. I used to hurt myself but I don’t anymore I’m almost a year clean. I still think about him. I’m in a almost 1 year relationship. I love him but I feel myself switching between 2 feelings. 1, I’ll be hyper sexual. Or 2, I will hate him even trying to cuddle me or hug me. I feel claustrophobic. It’s hard to explain to him how I feel. A few months after the boy at school sexually assaulted me, I was sexually assaulted by my step dad’s dad. He only got kicked out. I still have to see him. And I still have to live with the memory of him running his rough hand up my inner thigh while I was wearing shorts. I tried to kick him off of me but he just laughed. HE LAUGHED AT ME. Cps got involved and they didn’t do anything. Just told him he couldn’t live in our house but I mean I still have to see him every Christmas and thanksgiving. Last thanksgiving I had to go to my boyfriends cuz I almost had a panic attack from having to see him. I’m hurting. It was 1-2 years ago so idk if I am being dramatic. But I’m really really hurting.

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Aliyah Other September 13, 2022 at 5:56 am 0 0