Im losing motivation, to draw, watch anime, clean, everything. I'm sad, I'm crying I dont know anymore. I want to move, get up but i cant. I hate it, I hate this, i hate myself. Why, why, WHY. Why am I like this?I have so much, everything I could ever want, why am I so selfish? why do i ask for so much? I'm worthless I don't deserve anything at all. I hate myself but why? I dont look terrible, but I do, I really do I really do hate this. I want to change, I get jealous over everything, envious and insecure over every little thing. Honestly Im so selfish. I have a room, a home and I'm living healthily with a happy family but I ask for so much. I hate myself. Im horrible and ugly in and out, im terrible, disgraceful a waste of space, there is no way, no way I can change these two months of holiday. I dont have the motivation therefore I suck, I SUCK. I'm giving up, but maybe I can try.
eOther December 12, 2021 at 7:26 am00
you aren't selfish until you give up. do you understand that? you are a living, breathing, FEELING human being and you have every right to feel that way. you don't have to force yourself to change-- just allow yourself to /be/. allow yourself to feel, and mourn, and be jealous, and be upset, but don't allow it to consume you,, if that makes sense. do not push it down or discard it, but do not bathe in it, either. :o) if you need to talk, my snapchat is @lilhateslacroix ille 4 years ago
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ille 4 years ago