I'm not good at relationships

I have tried, God love me...especially since nobody else will love me at this rate. I have a ridiculous amount of love to give, at this point I can even be the primary wage earner if someone would like to manage a household a little more and work outside the home part time, and all I want is to have someone to marry who will appreciate who I am and reciprocate what I offer a little. I'm intelligent, I'm good looking, I'm usually funny even when I'm fucking depressed, I'm very warm and caring, but is that enough? God no. There's always some excuse as to why I'm not good enough. And it's absolutely an excuse at least 3 times out of 4, probably more. You can tell it's an excuse because it's so paper thin, if anyone wanted a decent relationship we'd work it out rather than them acting after months or years like it just hit them that this one stupid thing is the big deal breaker.

You don't like the way I dress? I've been dressing that way since we met. How come I'm just hearing about it in some tirade after 8 months? And if it's that big an issue, why didn't you say something? My clothes aren't affixed to me. Maybe I'd be open to dressing differently. Maybe fucking ask.

You don't like my religion? I've had the same one all my life and I have never hidden it from you or pressured you to join it. All it means in our relationship is that I go to a meeting house 2 hours a week, and the rest of the time I am faithful, honest, and caring toward you because that's what my religion teaches. Wow what a drawback. No wonder that's my big fatal flaw.

I don't get it at all.

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anonymous Dating July 21, 2025 at 9:56 pm 0 0