My gay cousin and the pizza buffet

When I was a kid my life fucking sucked. I was poor. I loved in the middle of nowhere. I had no friends because I was homeschooled. Nothing like being miserable and living inside the bullshit world of Disney Channel shows you'd have to sneak around to watch because your parents would bitch if they saw you watching them.

Anyway. My cousin was the opposite. He had whatever he wanted. One of those kids who'd just randomly get to get new toys all the time for no reason. Had good food in his house. Got to actually be a kid, a very spoiled one at that.

My mother forbid so much just to be a cunt. Buffets were one of the randomly outlawed things. Sometimes my grandmother would take me and my cousin out.

I'd always want the pizza buffet. That was a fucking godsend treat from heaven. The smell. The atmosphere of the TV and unlimited food. The dessert pizza. It was heaven.

Pretty much we went once and my spoiled cousin didn't eat anything. Then after that it became always about whatever he wanted. It pissed me off because he ALWAYS got what he wanted. The buffett was special to me, him getting whatever he wanted was just another moment, but he'd never notice because he was so conceded.

My grandmother never really liked me, that was clear from how differently she treated me compared to the other grand kids. She is now long dead. My cousin and I don't talk. He's a bitter man child who is fixated on 2000s culture like only he remembers the Madagascar movies.

I'm basically a lost child grown up. No Michael Jackson, Peter Pan shit going on. I don't pretend I'm 10 years old. I also stay far away from anything that reminds me of my upbringing.

I can just live my own life without all of the rigid fucked up rules that were only there to make my life harder. I have less work and responsibility now too. And I can pretty much get myself whatever I want.

Tomorrow I'm off work and I'm thinking about going to the pizza buffet. Not the huge deal it would have been long ago, but still fun nonetheless.

I can basically give myself now everything I didn't have as a kid, while fucks like my cousin didn't realize their childhood was the peak of everything until it was over.

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anonymous Relationships February 08, 2026 at 4:04 pm 0 0