Me

honestly i have no idea what i'm doing with my life. i don't enjoy doing things that i once used to.
idk how to convey my thoughts to my friends, i always feel like i might be disturbing them so idk who to call because they are going through their own stuff. idk when was the last time i had a proper convo with my bestfriend. she's busy with work i get it. Recently, we don't even share reels with each other. I miss her so much. 2 months ago, my mom had an heart attack which turned everything in my life upside down. it was a lot to go through but my mom, shes so damn strong she fucking survived and here she is, but she was in the fucking hospital for almost 2 months and it hurt so much to see her like that. i cried when i saw her in that condition after that i stopped myself every damn time because i had to be strong so basically i just kept bottling my feelings and the fact that i haven't completely bursted yet scares me.
i haven't been able to sleep and yesterday it got too much, that i thought maybe dying is better.

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anonymous Other April 25, 2026 at 5:44 am 0 0