It's always the same with me

I always act crazy. I probably am crazy. I start laughing randomly and genuinely can't stop or I get a horrible feeling or I get all dizzy suddenly. I feel overwhelming shame about most things, if not everything. I feel a sad tired, I want a freedom that so feels stupidly impossible.(Big reason my grades change so drastically) I always think I'd accept any help but I just get stupid fucking assumptions and then I get pissed by those assumptions and I never end up getting help. I don't know what's wrong. I mean why I am how I am or when I became this screwed up. I think I want to get better but I'm just crazy so I could be okay for some time and then start being all sad and anxious. Like this feeling that I need to go. Maybe I'm sad and anxious and tired all the time and I just distract myself until that becomes horrible and it repeats. I'm sure everyone's sick of me. I don't know what to do

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anonymous Other April 21, 2026 at 10:08 pm 0 0