Is it supposed to feel like this

I think my brain is just in a weird place? Is this what depression feels like? Or some other thing I don't know? It's so funny that some days I think I am doing so great, but I look back at all of my notes app vents and its like ahhh...i was contemplating my own death 10 days ago. Like am I not feeling time? 10 days is a very short time frame, so Im not sure how my mind could create the idea that it's "been a while" of me feeling better. I oscillate constantly between feeling pretty alright and on the verge of killing myself. I'm at a loss. I think this feeling is something that stays forever, and that we have to learn how to live around it, but I don't think I am strong enough. It's hard for me to think I'm anything or do anything worth while. Im afraid other people see that worthlessness in me too.

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anonymous Other March 23, 2026 at 11:03 pm 0 0