Im Stressed when I dont think i should be

I 14M live with my mother primarily and my father secondary. They divorced last year and it feels like everything fell apart after that. I have one sister 11F who never seemed to have problems. But it felt like once they divorced my sister changed. She and my mom would argue almost every day. My sister constantly says she needs a break from my mother. Even though my mother loves us unconditionally and is trying her fucking hardest to homeschool a teenager and a pre-teen. Ive asked if she likes moms house and shes given me a face that says "not really" and she feels much better at my fathers house. This could be because my mother is much more strict and uptight about stuff and my dad was always more laidback.
Part of this reason i think my sister likes my dads more is because he lets us do more then our mother. Me and my sisters sleep schedule are both messy. Mine has gotten better but when my sister is at my dads it feels like all hell breaks lose. I have a room at my mothers while my sister shares a room with my mother. At my fathers she has her own room and i sleep on a pullout couch in the living room. My sister stays up all night during weekends with my father. My dad says to go to bed no later then 11:30. While i try to abide to this i do go to bed maybe 30 minutes after. But my sister after multiple reminders at my dads might be awake at 4:00. My mom is much more strict. Bedtime is 11:30 on the dot. No more music no sound just sleep. My sister sleeps in my room frequently she says shes anxious about the new place because shes closer to the window.
Our old apartment had 2 bedrooms. The rooms me and my sister had had no windows. Here my mother and sisters room have a window. She gets anxiety from the window despite her side of the bed being farther away of the window. When she sleeps in my room she sleeps on my couch next to my fucking window i am not innocent. I get on my devices late at night when im not supposed to. And when i deny her accsess to sleep in my room she threatens to tell her. I get so mad. When we moved to a past place i got scared and slept with my mom and sister. But now shes saying because i slept in there i have to return the favor when i tell her that i HAVE been letting her sleep in here she says that it doesnt matter. What the fuck do you mean that doesnt matter. If i didnt have something to show for it i would understand. I fear my mother and sister may become estranged in the future if they dont fix it. I just wanted to put my thoughts somewhere. Thanks for readinf

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anonymous Home October 24, 2025 at 1:01 am 0 0