Im so PISSED at my mom.

Bro, i actually think my mom needs to take a chill pill. For some reference, im transgender (ftm) and i really hate to talk about it because i consider myself to be a guy, not a trans guy. I dont associate with some woke things, dont come for me. I'm also a teenager, but before trasitioning i asked myself all the hard questions and i understand that this is the best choice for me personally. Anyways, on with my rant. My mom needs to stop actually being weird about it. She's reciently been giving me hour long angry rants about how misogynistic i am because i don't want to be a woman, and how all my friends are also misogynistic. I get sick thinking about it. Sometimes ill remember exact quotes in my head and it really hurts my feelings. It genuinely weighs me down. I remember the first time i used transtape she told me to show her. That was a really odd request and i genuinely flinch every time i think about it. I didnt want to show her my chest. I really didnt. She needs to understand that i have privacy in my own body. Something else that she did was watch me get my tooth pulled. I had 3 front teeth, so i had to go get one pulled a few years ago so i could get braces (finally done with them, thank GOD!). I told her repeatedly i didnt want her to watch. I asked the doctors to get her out. She wouldnt leave, and now she watched me get my tooth pulled without my consent. I hate to sound soft right now, but i feel extremely violated about these two things. She doesnt ever listen. Im so angry at her! She really doesnt believe me about anything. I always tell her the truth and she's always skeptical. She always pushes me so hard to be perfect. She doesnt understand when i'm overwhelmed or in a bad mood. A few weeks ago i was tired and she said "the way you're acting is..unpleasant. i hope youre more normal tomorrow." It makes me want to actually shrivel up and die. Im so excited to get the hell out of here. Shes very weird about me. I really hate it. Im her son, and she needs to see me as a person. Now i need to mention how she treats my older brother. He gets everything. He's the oldest, and he's autistic, but my mom excuses everything. I remember my mom tried to force me to let my braces progress photos be used for medical research, but not my brothers. No, she put her hand on his back and said "i know you have issues with privacy, so i wont make you do this." I also want privacy. I managed to convince the doctor to listen to me, and my mom stayed mad for a while. I hate the sound of the news. It drives me mad. The sounds of the people's voices make my brain literally feel like its vibrating and its uncomfortable. My brother LOVES the news. My brother hates my rock music. I listen to rock music quietly in my bedroom, and my brother freaks the hell out. He blasts the news everywhere. In the car coming home from school, at home, in the morning, in the night, its always there. I tell him to turn it down maybe once or twice every few months and my mom and brother FLIP at me. Its so unfair. I hate it here. I HATE IT. My parents also are gonna force me to take an art major or minor in college. Im a musician, i dont draw. I havent drawn in years. I need my own choices, they need to stop. Im also mad that my doctor wont help me. Yknow how doctors are supposed to pull teenagers aside to talk about sex, mental health, and drugs? He never does that for me. I want to talk about mental health! I want a therapist! I demand help! I have a lot going on and i cant tell my mom. She doesnt believe in that kinda thing for me. Im chronically angry and slamming my fists, it sucks. I just want to be happy.

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Allen Other May 13, 2026 at 10:52 pm 1 0