IM FUCKING STUPID

I'm 17 and today I took my dad with me to see Markipliers 'Iron Lung' and I realized that I'm a fucking dumbass. I loved the film only to find out I ruined my dads day, I overheard him ranting to his girlfriend about his hatred for the movie and the time he lost. After listing to this rant i've come to realize I've been torturing this man with my stupid interests, I bring him media that him and so many hate and continue to push it in his face by talking and talking and talking about my love for that media whether it be books, film, music or video games it doesn't ducking matter and never has. IDK why I even try when I know I'm just wasting time. I NEED TO LEARN TO SHUT UP! I yap and yap only to realize no one likes what I'm talking about, I know this sounds pretentious and I know that not EVERYONE hates my likes but enough is hated upon for aspects that I actually appreciatte but I'm just stupid. I need to learn how to fit in cause this shit isn't fair to others. IDK why I even try sometimes, I liked the length and repetivity of Iron Lung because it feels like a real suffering and struggling situation but no one fucking agrees, critics hate, my dad hates and now I hate myself for being a dumbass who can't read the goddamn room. I can't keep finding interest in obviously stupid shit, I don't want to change but I have to be a better kid, friend and person. if I want to do well in school and my job I need to focus and put my focus in a more intelligent space to meet the bare minimum standards without getting killed by my general offset STUPIDITY. This rant uses improper grammer, punctuation, spelling, and existance. My stupidity and lack of real world focus is going to kill me from the inside out or quicker from the outside in. I'm failing and ruining all I have, my stupid ass existance.

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anonymous Other January 31, 2026 at 11:48 pm 1 0