I'm tired of acting, i wanna be me again.

Im 17, im a guy who just wants o have fun and laugh all the time yet the world doesnt let me be me at all
i grew up in a household where to be a guy means to be strong, masculine, and not show any emotions
while im the opposite of that, im weak, with a soft voice, im cheerful and like having fun, i dont care about trying to be sexy or hot, i dont care about anyones looks, i like bright colors and cute things, i like playing cute fun video games instead of shooter and rpg.
yet i was judged for every little thing i do/like i was judged for my looks, my voice, my body, my face
my way of talking, my favorite things, me basically.
and not just from family its from everyone i meet, relatives, neighbours, and even randoms.
they forced me to change myself, to go from being me to being someone i am not
i act and i lie, i now lie about everything i like just to feel included, i fake my voice, i fake my style
i fake my music taste, i fake my interests just for everyone to accept me and im so tired of this
i want to be me again i want to be in a community where i feel safe and included where i atleast feel accepted. im tired of acting im tired of roleplaying as a personality that is not me at all

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Ali Other May 01, 2026 at 10:25 am 0 0