i hate that i still miss you

i hate that i still miss you . everytime i think about all of the good memories we had together i close my eyes and see all of the hurtful things you said about me. it was always us until you decided it didn’t matter to you anymore. i tried to come back to you because i love you with all my heart just to find out you were doing it again. i can’t trust you . i love you and i want to hug you and talk to you again but i can’t do it without picturing all the things you’ve said about me, the things and hurt that you’ve wished upon me. i look at your texts and feel like im in some twisted nightmare. i used to not be able to go a single day without talking to you or hearing your voice but now i hope and pray that i won’t hear your name or remember your words. you were everything to me and maybe that was too much. we were best friends but was that really all? i don’t think i wanted to be more than that but i could never draw a line with you. everything was more than words can define and i still can’t figure out what it meant to you. i didn’t need a lover in you, i just wanted you to be my friend.

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anonymous Friends July 09, 2025 at 3:26 am 0 0