i hate being pretty

I wish I was ugly. I'm so sick of not being able to make ANY meaningful friendships with men because of my looks. I don't even like men ffs. Every time I make a male friend they end up asking me out or confessing to me and all I want is an actual friendship. The amount of times I've been sexually harassed just because men think having piercings makes me "freaky" too is so gross. Even women treat me different. I didn't choose to look the way I do, and even if I do things or wear things to make me look less desirable, it doesn't make a difference. I'm so sick of people. Atp I just wanna hole up in a cave and never come out. I find it hard enough to make friends as it is because I'm autistic, but the fact that when I do try people take advantage of it and think they have a chance with me puts me off. I haven't had a friendship that actually feels special in years. I know I sound ungrateful, but it's genuinely horrible to be attractive unless you WANT every man in your vicinity to want you (which I don't) and every woman to treat you differently. Anyway I just needed to get that off my chest.

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s Friends March 26, 2026 at 1:00 pm 0 1