I had a panic attack and my friends did nothing.

The end of term tests were coming in, i was stressed and under studied and had made it 100% clear my my friends –which consisted of 4 in the moment– that i wasn't having anything. (im calling my friends by first letter of their name)

i arrive at school, im tired and anxious, im sweating like a pig just by taking the bus. i finally get to this seating area outside at the gate and meet my friends. one of them was my girlfriend at the time, who was insanely emotionally unavailable. as i sit down and i make light jokes with my friends about the tests, i can feel this pit growing in my stomach, and all my nerves just spring up. i lower my head, trying to control my breathing, repeating to my friends as i try and stop my reaction through shame and embarrassment... "i think im having a panic attack, i feel so sick, help"

then 'S' pulls out her phone, snapping a picture of me spiralling into this cunundrum of sensations and 'A' is just sitting next to me pulling up a peace sign AND SMILING.

i get not knowing how to comfort but doing THAT? its so disgusting and it makes me cry to this day. they were so – and still are – so immature and rude, i dont feel safe enough to even express boundaries.

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Irin Other October 13, 2025 at 9:01 am 0 1