i fucked up?

me and my best friend made the mistake of being 'just friends' with physical intimacy. theyre polyamorous and have just started talking to someone new which made me feel not great cause i am in love with them and im newer to learning how to navigate nonmonogamy. with how are relationship is i didnt know what i was able to communicate because we werent dating and it got really messy unintentionally which my dumbass shouldve forseen. i ended up losing my mind a bit and sharing a lot in a bit of an intense way and now i feel like they hate me or at least just dont actually like me even as friends but we have plans to leave the state together and i worry that theyre just still being nice to me and whatnot because if they stop talking to me that plan is ruined. they were supposed to come over last night but then said they werent feeling great and wanted to stay home. i asked if theyre ok and said that im here if they want to talk about anything, they just said that theyve been feeling bad for the past week but havent been able to pinpoint why. its been because of me. i started acting crazy about a week ago. i was at work and anxious and so i responded a bit emotionally and said that i apologize if it was because of me being so emotionally charged recently and that when they go on their trip for the next few days if they want to like take a minute from me so they can have time to just enjoy their trip they can have that. and they said a very brief "its ok" but theyre probably going to be locked in while theyre there- so they will infact me talking to me less when they go. i think ive ruined everything and im losing my best friend and also the person who im genuinely in love with because i didnt know how to handle my feelings of insecurity and jealousy. im learning to be ok with non monogamy but i have things i want to talk to them about but i dont want to keep loading more and more onto them right especially right before or after a trip. i want to give them a break from the stress and worry but i feel so sad and scared and i need to talk to them

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anonymous Friends November 07, 2026 at 5:29 am 0 0