I feel like I'm not a good person

I had an argument with a person who wasn't very important to me or anything at about 11pm last night. The argument went to an hour, and he called me a Bitch Ass Bully multiple times. It's morning now, and I had time to think about it multiple times. Him and I have beef from a few months ago so I pushed it off, however. Now, I think about what he said in that conversation and I can't deny that some of them are true. Yes, a lot of things he said about me are biased and are only facts about what I've done before that he has seen, however he isn't wrong in some areas. For example, I hate to admit it but I do in fact talk about other people I don't deem worthy behind their backs, and sometimes, I forget about it soon after. I have people in my life that I enjoy being around, meaning I don't talk behind their backs at all, cause in my head, they are really good people I care about. You might go and say that it's unfair because it is. I'm aware of that. I don't even know why I do this anymore. I judge myself a lot too, however that's no excuse. I don't know what to do except cope. I feel like such a bad person now, and yes, an option is to change. I'm aware of that too. I've spiraled a bit after this. Not just because of this event however. Other events that has happened before makes me feel like I should do things. If I include what I need to say, I probably will be violating the rules on this website. Unsure actually. first time using this website :]

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anonymous Friends October 19, 2025 at 1:23 pm 0 0