i cant believe myself

bro i just saw someone in the streets that looks exactly like an adult actor i frequently watch on twittter....WHAT THE FUCK bruh like im not tryna excuse this porn addiction at all, i know its wrong and stuff and i do wnat to get better but its like the feeling when i saw that person was such deep self disgust it actually woke the fuck out me. idk if im doing this subconsiously or as a kind of self harm but i dont think ive evver fully stopped from this, the longest break i took was for a month (exact). i seem to relapse when i get bored and when i spiral into the frequent state of melancholy i feel from time to time idk how to explain this period, it happens a couple times in a year but stays for a while. anyways i feel so weird knowing that i can recognize actors faces in REAL PEOPLE.. like isnt that traumatizing asf, addiction really does affect every part of your life mind u i was getting groceries someone help cuz even if i stop watching porn i wont forget their faces :s

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anonymous Other May 15, 2026 at 7:10 am 0 0