hello

uhmm actually im known having many friends even known as a social butterfly yeah its nice having friends. But its not that nice when you realized that when u need them they are always not available but when they need me im always there. I may seem oa or dramatic but it feels like my heart is crushed 100 billion times. It make me feel used in such several ways. And seeing how I can suddenly change from sad to happy just so no one could see that im actually sad because I dont want to bother them I feel that I can be replaced in such instant. I only have God and my family and my lover. But I dont know how to talk about this kind of topic around them. It makes me feel super weak. I remember one time I was crying and being quiet in my room then my brother asked me to open the door and he saw me crying.. I just told him that I watched a very sad movie. It feels very heavy in my chest.. I dont know why. but when im talking and praying I feel nice, it feels good when u have someone to talk too.. what will many friends benefit you when you dont have true ones..

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ann Other April 26, 2026 at 2:00 pm 1 0