Future

I'm genuinely so scared for the future like I cant even describe how scared I am because I feel like it will never be the same as before when I was happy and dumb, now I'm so aware of things and I always feel like something bad is gonna happen. Im too scared to pray because I feel like God will send something bad instead to test me, I'm so scared and I don't know what to do. every single day I think of the bad things that can happen to me and even writing this rant is making me feel sick. I just miss my life before when everything was so happy and summer was beautiful. Everyday I feel like I'm gonna lose my house and end up homeless somewhere or something will happen to my parents, I just cant anymore. Im too scared to even do anything at this point because I feel like it will cause something bad to happen and Ive already been through a break up and it took me a whole year to heal and I don't want to go through that ever again.

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anonymous Other April 11, 2026 at 1:42 pm 1 0