Fucked up brains

I hate being in this stupid single life limbo. I want to be able to be single and feel normal but I really didn't want to end my last relationship at all. But we were not good for each other, so it had to be done. I still love her so much, though. I honestly think it's killing me.

Despite this, I do have waves a loneliness kick in where I crave being with somebody. For the sake of letting off steam and everything pent up, just to be fucked and feel good. To have intimacy again. But I also get these moments of clarity where I feel disgusted at this thought; how could I imagine this when I still love my previous partner? Does that make me trash? Unloyal to all the promises of loving her forever and no one else? Will I have to find a new love, or will she one day take me back?

It's a constant back and forth. Maybe I am awful for this. I don't know anymore. All I know is that I have a lot of feelings with nowhere to go. I'm scared I will never love properly again. What do I do?

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anonymous Relationships November 05, 2025 at 1:21 am 0 0