fuck my ex

i’m just gonna type out every thing wrong she’s done to me because anyone else i talk to about this is automatically on her side cause they know her longer.
my ex broke up with me on my birthday , but let’s go back to the beginning of what this fat hippo did to me. first, she lives 2 hours from me and doesn’t have a car, at least that’s what she told me, our first date was at a concert that we both really liked tickets were 350$ a piece, apparently that didn’t count as a date in her eyes, but 6 dates later after the concert i get told by my supposable best friend that she’s upset with me cause i don’t take her out enough, why the fuck is he the one telling me this , why does she rant about me to our friends behind my back and never talk to me about it, why the fuck does he think it’s ok to tell me i’m doing a shitty job that shouldn’t be his business, never once got angry, i tried being better , every romantic gesture i do feels like a stab in my gut cause no matter what i did gave her the ick, she’s a 300 pound hippo yet im the gross one, she has a car yet im suppose to go pick her up every day , an every time we’re together i pay for everything, an i never had a problem or said anything about it, she always wants to go camping , and camping fuckin sucks at least wait for camping weather , not in fuckin december when it’s cold as shit and she’s always trying to touch me even after i tell her about my abusive past and i can’t be touched liked that unless im ready , but she never waits for me to be ready, an gets pissed and waits till she’s alone with my friends to tell them i’m a pathetic virgin or a **** for not wanting to be fuckin r@ped, and yes i have been physically intimate with her but i have to be in the right mood , right headspace or i get panic attacks and severe ptsd, yes im in therapy for this, she knows this because i’ve repeatedly told her about this and gave her every opportunity to leave if she didn’t want to deal with my problems, because i actually fucking talk to her and not wait to bitch about her when i’m alone with friends, she moved into a apartment without telling me and my so called best friend helped her move in all her stuff, i don’t have proof but 100% they fucked, i never said anything because i don’t have proof and i didn’t want her to hate me if i asked, we call each other every night before we go to bed, i mean talking fo hours and hours, things i’ve never talked to anyone about trusting her with everything, just for her to blab it all to the group cause she’s a fat hippo bitch, she’ll also tell me she’s had panic attacks herself about me cause she plays this whatever ai chat bot that supposably acts like a better boyfriend than me and i tell her to talk to me, let’s discuss what the problem is so i can be better for her, if being in a relationship is too difficult let me go, but she tells me im doing a good job, i don’t know how because i apparently give her panic attacks even though shes the one not respecting my personal struggles. i ask her if she wants to go to this amusement park with my family in a couple of days after my birthday, at any time she could have made some excuse to not go but nah , a good person would’ve not let me buy the ticket if they were planning on breaking up with that person, day before birthday , the night we call , i tell her i’m happy to see her on my birthday, we both say we love you, birthday happens, no texts no calls, i assume she’s just super busy at work, finally get a call , she’s crying telling me it’s not me it’s her, breaks up with me, fuckin great birthday, still have that fuckin ticket, three later now she’s dating my so called best friend and i’m a asshole if i have a problem with it, there both fat so he can have all the fun now trying to fuck a 50 pound flab fold wondering if his tiny peckers in her vadge or stomach, fuck both of them , and fuck me for not leaving earlier, oh and SHES ALWAYS HAD A FUCKIN CAR she just didn’t want to drive herself anywhere and use her gas.
this shit has made me really depressed, an i don’t know if i’ll ever be happy cause i don’t know if i could ever trust anyone again, i don’t think i could handle anything like this again and my parents are hounding me on getting another girlfriend but i just can’t do this again.

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J Relationships March 18, 2026 at 1:08 am 3 1