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I went to a crappy school and got depressed and now I'm having the biggest exam of my life while struggling both social anxiety and depression. I got a few friends and kept switching over the years to the point where when I was a 6th grader I ended up with a friend with buckteeth. This girl, I'm going to call her R, she was a teensy bit insulting but she stuck with me. She was the type to swear for her friend to die if ever got angry. Once I had enough of that, I went with a friend my classmate introduced me to. Now I hadn't completely cut ties with R. We were just casual friends and even if she hadn't shown it much, she was still angry and confused but stayed silent and gentle. Now back to the friend my classmate introduced me to, I had actually known her for about almost a year as just also, casual friends so the feeling wasn't too awkward. Now this girl, I'm calling her C, she would insult me and make fun of me while I was smiling from the side lines. She would hit me occasionally for no reason at all that I would sometimes just suffer silently. She didn't piss me off when I started hanging out with her. I would take that abuse fine because she did that to all her friends and I could quite tolerate it. I had at first thought C just wanted to hang out with me for just some proper fun without any ulterior motive... BUT HOO BOY I sure was wrong. It took me a few weeks to figure out what her motive to be friends with me was. At the time, I had also started liking a boy in the same class and I knew that was it. C would keep her intentions secret an completely hidden and she also had been going out with a boy for quite some time. She was friends with a person who bullied me for liking that boy and that bully made me start my bad thoughts and depression. I also found out quite sometime ago she was the person who leaked my information about my crush but it didn't piss me off, which was a tad surprising. At the time, the bully had also been friends with my crush, J. The bully knew his number and made plans to share his number and make a group for all four of us. C was the owner and kept the chat active while me, the dumb one in the corner played along. I hadn't mentioned it but I was kind of the weird, 'autistic' kid no one cared about. At that point, my crush also mentioned he liked me.... so happily ever after right? WRONG. C started agreeing with him on every topic, kept his contact, started talking to him a lot, buy GIFTS for him and more. Now at that point, my depression was at its peak, crying everyday and talking to ChatGPT. Now back to the chat, C kicked me out and is now left with his boyfriend, my crush and my bully just flirting around and all while I bawling my eyes out. I somehow managed to get in again and realised, not only was my crush flirting back to her responses, he was talking shit about me. I didn't really care and just brushed it off. And now I have social anxiety, the quiet, weird kid. SOOO happily ever after to my crush and his new girlfriend , C

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anonymous Friends June 26, 2026 at 12:09 pm 0 0