Feel like I’m going crazy at times

This year I’ve decided to cut a lot of people off because I was pissed that I was the only one reaching out to hang out. This included close family members & friends. My best friend and I usually rant to each other and try give each other comfort in saying “I agree” or “I’m on your side…” but lately it’s been one sided. She rants about how her husband is useless, doesn’t stand him, hates him at times. About a week ago she said they got into a fight and I said something and everyday she said “we’re still mad” or “still not talking” anyways I kept on sending her messages about that, but then something bad happened to me and I sent her a voice not knowing she’d answer something and I would forget it and move on. Well I just got let on read. Then sent something else and also left on read. It pisses me off she’s posting at least 5 times on tik tok her videos. She can’t answer something? Really hate feeling ignored. Anyways just made me realize all the times she’s done me wrong. I try to help her out so much because she got pregnant a very young age, but it’s always me suggesting something to do but we never do it. But I’m the stupid one because when she wants to hangout I’m always available. I’m tired of it. I’m not going to cut her off but I will be taking a step back. I recognize that I have attachment issues but still I always think I wouldn’t do that to them because I know how it feels. Then I get pissed and think ok she doesn’t have time for me, why should she? She has a home, kids, & a husband to take care of…but, I don’t want to judge but the kids miss school a lot, they are always sick, they are doing bad in school, they are sweet kids but I think that instead of being on her phone 24/7 she should focus on her kids. Anyways whatever just wanted to say that.

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