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I'm just decent. I suck sometimes but for the most part I'm average. So you might be wondering why I'm complaining if I think I'm sooo average? Well the truth is I want to do things that I feel I can't. Sometimes I want to be better than being average and below average. I want to talk about my interests! I want to be interested in things freely and say so! People around me aren't like that or are too much like that. School is a big part of it but its also in general. A big reason I don't listen to music is that everyone seems to have such different music tastes and they feel they are so right, they judge others. The same applies to the way I dress. I dress in a way I know I'll get by enough to not be judged, but in truth if it weren't for other people I'm not sure I'd dress the way I do. I don't do other things about my appearance for the same reason. I don't draw or read or watch show/movies I like in places people could see me either because I know they're things the people at school think are weird. I find it weird that they think those things are weird but to blend in I don't say anything. I feel the need to play down the fact I do things because I enjoy them. And there are other things. Honestly I also know it's not just other people, in truth I feel admitting I actually like something at all is very difficult for me.

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anonymous School March 16, 2026 at 11:30 pm 0 0