Escape

Everyone in my life is just so miserably insufferable. There will come a time where I can make an escape and it will seem like I just disappeared. Wanting to cut off everyone in my life. I'm done being the punching bag for everyone around me. The way they have to project all their insecurities and negative emotions onto me, the way that I'm never enough and simply just existing is just too 'inconvenient' and 'disappointing' for them, the way that because life didn't turn out the way they wanted for themselves I have to always suffer the consequences for not wanting to live or make decisions they want me to do. My life fell apart and I live with the consequences everyday without needing to blame anyone for it or burdening anyone with the fallout. I don't care anymore. Everything has to be transactional. I have no problem being happy, appreciative, reasonable and understanding with everyone, yet when it comes to me, they couldn't be bothered because it wasn't to their standards or it's not what they wouldn't have done or it was stupid. It's pathetic. No longer will I feel like I have to deal with being stepped on, taken advantage of, or not of value. I'm a person. I won't put up with this shit anymore. So don't act surprised when you finally have to feel the consequences of your own actions instead of forcing me to bare the burden or punishment. For once, you need to feel like you're the problem. You're the reason I don't love or care for you. You're the reason you are so fucking miserable in your sad pathetic life. So the next time you want to make me feel less than you, less than dirt, just know that I am wishing for you to rot in hell and wouldn't care for your absence. You don't deserve to have me in your life. And I will not be lost.

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anonymous Home July 17, 2025 at 8:35 pm 0 0