Chicken shit depression

Im thinking of attempting suicide again. As you can see it didn't work so I don't know what to do right now. I'm scared I'll get my mom pissed off again just for no reason

Yesterday was my birthday, so I hung out with 2 of my friends (not really like a hangout cause I was attending something like a school) but it seemed like they were running around and avoiding me on purpose while giggling shits and my mom talked to her friend all day after.

It's fine tho cause I'm used to that. After all I am a fucking middle child. I should be the one to take care of my siblings, be responsible, get good grades and all that chicken shit.

I guess it's okay if I'm severely depressed and if I do self harm cause it can't be helped. Even if I get locked in my room, beat up by my siblings, hit by my parents, ignored by my friends, or whatever.

It'll be over soon anyway. I should be grateful cause there's kids going through worse. So it's fine

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anonymous Other May 23, 2026 at 11:34 pm 1 0